Friday, February 29, 2008/1:55 PM


alicia, yizhuang and me met up with jieying, yuping and cixian after school.

went to get mr tok his birthday present! haha. we are such lovely friends, aren't we? ;D

anyway, got him apair of slippers and wallet. (don't think he would visit my blog until tomorrow?)
and i wrapped them up with a superduper-ugly-like-shit flower print wrapper. hahaha. (specially chosen by us!) ;) so funny seh. i think he would be damn paisei when he receive the present man.

but the card i made for him is damn solid. don't believe go ask them. i see liao i aso very gan dong. haha. cos really too nice liao. i buay tahan sia. how come i do card so nice one. hah.

anyway, after buying his present, me,jieying,yuping and ali went to mac. we sat there and chit-chat. ali left shortly to meet jiaen and meihong. so left me,jieying and yuping.

haha. so happy to be with them sia. talked and joked alot. about anything and everything.
cixian joined us later and we went to take neoprints! heh heh. nice SEH.
then after dinner, went to library borrow books then home sweet home.

just want to say am really so happy being with them. i think i am still hanging on dearly to all my old friendships. not a bad thing i suppose?
anyway, jieying finally gave me my birthday present. hahaha. after like a month?
am so touched by what she wrote in her letter. :'(
thanks so much man.

well, i am learning to make new friends.
step by step. just like a child, learning how to walk.
holding on to old friendship like how they are holding on to their parents's hands, afraid of failing and falling.
as time goes by, bit by bit, the grip would loosen.
in no time, i would be able to move out, and start walking on my own.

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Wednesday, February 27, 2008/1:02 PM


went back to swiss today!

met jiamin,ali,huiying,cixian,yongbin,xuanhan,junda and many fellow pioneers.

took photo with mr ravi!
poor mr ravi. he said the teachers are really worn out.
some photos taken in the co room:

cx,jm,hy,me


dunno what got onto mdm xu. haha.

taken on the way home. cx and me.
sia la. my hair damn messy seh.


huiying and me. hah. hair equally messy. tsk tsk.
hmm. was a great meet up i would say.

just want to tell hy,cx and yb.
you guys looked wonderful in saint's uniform. i am so proud of you all. and so happy to see you all. must work and mug hard k? saint is a fun school but comes to studying, it's all on your own. jia you lots!

huiying: we missed you so much, do you know? at least i did. 不习惯 pj 少了你. still looking forward to seeing you in pioneer. but saw how great you were in saints and i am so happy for you. all the best to you okay? work hard in saints and be happy there. as long as you are happy then good enough. take care. ;)

took 985 home and realised it had been a long time since i hopped onto 985 after school, like how i did everyday during the 4 years at swiss, and took that journey home.

the journey home was exceptionally heavy-hearted.

couldn't believe am now a jc1 student!

recalled how i cursed and sweared at the bus, at the bus uncle and everything for coming late; for rushng off before i get to hop onto the bus, for having a faulty aircon, for moving so slowly, for not dashing through the traffic light as it turns orange, for being stuck in a heavy traffic, for being so cramped with people.....

and the list continues.

no chance for that anymore. at least for the 2 years to come. i just need a pathetic 3 mins to reach school from home if i walk fast enough. hah. wad a joke!

swiss is changing. everything is. and this is how things are working.
我决定不再去太在意一切的改变了.

take great care, everyone.

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Tuesday, February 26, 2008/8:19 AM


finished the book.

what a beautiful piece of work. :)

first time i felt such intense pain deep down in my heart while reading through the words.

oh my.

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/8:05 AM


tears trickled down holly's face as she realised he was right.
she needed to remember gerry
and be happy about the love they shared
and the love she still continued to feel;
but not to cry about them,
not to yearn for the many more years with him
that would never come.
she thought of the line he had written to her,
"remember our wonderful memories,
but please don't be afraid to make some more."
she needed to put the gohost of gerry that haunted her
to rest but to keep his memories alive.
there was still life for her after his death.

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/7:58 AM


some people go through life
searching and never find their soulmates.
they never do.
you and i did,
we just happened to have them
for a shorter period of time
than we hoped for.
it's sad, but it's life.

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Monday, February 25, 2008/11:48 AM


excerpts from P.S. I LOVE YOU

---*holly held the blue cotton sweater to her face and the familiar smell immediately struck her, an overwhenming grief knotting her stomach and pulling at her heart. pins and needles ran up the back of her neck and a lump in her throat threatened to choke her. panic took over. apart from the low hum of the fridge and the occasional moaning of the pipes,the house was quiet. she was alone. bile rose in her throat and she ran to the bathroom, where she collapsed to her knees before the toilet.

gerry was gone and he would never be back. that was the reality. she would never again run her fingers through his soft hair, never share a secret joke across the table at a dinner party, never cry to him when she got home form a hard day at work and just needed a hug, she would never share a bed with him again, never be woken up by his fits of sneezes each morning, never laugh with him so much her stomach would ache, never fight with him about whose turn it was to get up and turn the bedroom light off. all that was left was a bundle of memories, and an image of his face that became more and more vague each day...


---*for the first time since gerry died, the three of them laughed and talked about him all night, and holly finally learned how to talk about her husband without feeling sad. it used to be the four of them together: holly, gerry, sharon and john. this time only three of them gathered to remember the the only one they had lost. with all the talk, he became alive for them, all that night, and soon they would be four again, with the arrival of sharon and john's baby.
life went on.



i am seriously+totally in loved with this book! all that descriptions and everything. wah seh.

couldn't remember how many a times i weeped while reading those lines of words and yadayada. :'( i could almost feel the pain you know? that was how powerful the writer was. able to sway my emotions.

on the verge of finishing already! give me 2 more hours~ ;D

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Sunday, February 24, 2008/3:31 PM


hah. don't feel like updating! but it's been ages since i really blogged.

monday:
last day of school for the pae batch. glad that none of the girls of my class ponned school that day. don't know what to say but 08s13 is really a fun class. took lots of pictures during physics lesson cos the teacher decided not to teach and you know-it was a free period for us. anyway, had fun playing card games with my class!

anyway, after lessons on monday, the girls went to lot one to slack and crap. after which we went to xiuhan's house. it was fun and filled with laughter. haha. especially for the part on "truth or dare".

tuesday:
no school today! jae results out lah. no kick at all for me seh.
posted to pj expectedly. glad that most of us got into the school/poly course we wanted lah.

then turbo,ali,huiying and me went to yz's house. yp was working so didn't join us. and yeah. had lots of fun too. mahjiong mahjiong. laugh laugh. talk talk. shout shout.

after that baba got to leave and go home to sweep and mop floor. wahaha. which was a rather amusing excuse reason for not joining us for some shopping and movie.(anw, it's true lah!)

so me,hy and yz went to bugis to shop for yz's bag and yeah. she got one. haha. easy job. not like cx they all. find one bag also find so long. then so long liao still cannot decide on one. tsk tsk.

after which yp joined us from her workplace. then we all travelled back to jurong east to meet turbo for movie.
and we watch ah long.

wah lau.

a stupid lame show can. haha. go there buy laughter only. storyline also damn stupid. but ok lah. at least got laugh quite alot throughout due to the msia qiang. heh heh. the msia qiang damn solid seh. 几够力一下wor. haha.

wednesday:
picked myself up to school quite reluctantly. 1st day of orientation= sian+很sian+非常sian+超级sian+还是sian

and yah. as expected. it was totally lousy. but luckily got yz's storybook accompany me throughout the talks. PS: I LOVE YOU. omg. it's really a very very very nice book. never bluff you one. really. anyway,don't doubt yourself.it was a movie actually. or maybe got the book first then got the movie. or the movie first then the book. aiya. anything lah. just want to say it's a solid story book with wonderful storyline. dunno how the movie would be like but the book is really strong.

and yah. i forgot which day yz taught the JC1s the college anthem aleady. was it today? err yah. i think so. anw, she did well leh. no zao xia~ haha. solid.

thursday:
alright.today was so much better. had games and things like that. bonded more with my og people. and yah.
but it was extremely tiring lah. i just dropped my head on the pillow and i was soundly asleep. Zzzzzz
anyway, happy 3 months anniversary! ;D

friday:
orientation ended in a super high mode. when i say super high, i really meant it was superduper high high high. O1 i also not so siao seh. me and jiamin really shouted+jumped+danced like siao. and got this indian guy who never fails to amuse me with his SUPERSOLID SCREEEEEEEAAAAAMMMMMM.wahahahaha. i buay tahan sia. u dun believe u go ask wenxian. haha. (and im still giggling away now)

anyway, yeah. O2 was really nice, i thought.

today:
woo!woke up with aches all around my body. haha.
afternoon met up with 08s13 peeps!

the guys wanted pool. sian. but they insisted the girls play too. so yeah. i tried my hands on the game- for the first time after tagging along to pool games so many times. haha. okay lah. so-so only. i dunno how to play. anyhow shoot here shoot there. still can go in. haha.

the guys had fun laughing at our verystupid unique way of holding the bamboo? the stick? haha.

after that, they went to the arcade and some of us went to eat. they joined us shortly and all of us ate together. then we took hell lots of time to decide on where to go next. all sorts of suggestions: birdpark? science centre? zoo? botanic garden? imm? library? watsons? old changi hospital? changi T3? movies? pool(again)?

and yeah. we finally settled on ernest's house. hah.

mahjiong,tv,piano. that was what we did.

me and alicia(not our baba) were on the piano from 5pm to 8pm. and we are still trying to figure out how to play "right here waiting" (hello. it's only the first few lines can.) i think we play until the mahjiong people want to die already. we really non-stop sia.

that's it man. i think im really not a piano person. haha. cannot control my hand sia.

afterwhich took some group photos together. so funny can. the guys had hell lots of ideas seh. then finally went to the kopitiam for dinner.

had a super nice sesssion on lame jokes.(and yellow jokes from the guys. tsk tsk.)
and we parted at around 0930. haii. this could well be the last time i get to see some of them before we really get to meet each other again. how sad.

sometimes i really hate all these changes. all these pathetic changes that come my way when i have already accepted and adapted everything. that feeling sucks. totally sucks. why can't they just once and for all make all the changes and stop?
wad the fish.
anyway.our class manager is going to appeal for us to be back in the same class again since most of us are going to take back the same combi during jae. hope it would be successful!
and yeap. that's all for today and this whole week.
bye bye~

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Monday, February 18, 2008/9:47 AM


had a superduper great deal of fun at ms toh's house yesterday. :DDDDD

am so glad to see those friends again lah.

edward is still the usual him. as lame as ever. as random as ever. as joke as ever.

meihong too. still that very very funny meihong i knew from last time till now.

penny and yiting are still as quiet. but im really so glad to see yiting again. :)

zhihong is still so pro in his piano.

wendy and yushan have became prettier.

benghow became very quiet. don't know why. no longer that talkative bh we used to know. kind of missed his usual past self. :( they say it's because he grown up.

anyway, we just gambled and ate and crapped and gambled and ate and crapped and yadayadayada.

i think such reunions are really hard to come by man. yet it'll just get more and more difficult to have such gatherings for the many months and years to come. which is kind of a sad thing.


a group photo at ms toh's house. short of some of the people cos they are kind of late.

anyway, posting results gonna be out soon. it's just gonna be changes and changes and changes again. in friends. in classmates. in teachers. in subject combi. in school. in environment. in mood. in feeling. in attitude. and everything. how pathetic.

happened to read those encouragement messages that were sent to me during the o level period.
am really so touched! those little words of encouragement really had a great impact on me.

and sincerely wished cixian,yongbin and kaiyao all the best. it would be the first time ever they get to embark on their jc life journey. good luck and jia you lots! im always here for you guys. do not start thinking about how great it would be if you have chosen the poly route instead. it will just make you feel worse and bothered.

and to the 3 peeps and also everyone of you out there(my bestest friends and classmates) it might be is going to be tough. but never do you give up at all! because you have made that decision and you shall have no regrets. 选择你能承受的。承受你能选择的. and just make sure this, when you're at the end of the rope,tie a knot and hang in there. jia you lots, people.

我们的追求,我们的向往,我们的梦想,伴随着我们一起充实,成长。明天的路怎样走,要靠自己。大家都会为了明天更好的自己而奋斗。
为了明天的我们,我们什么都不怕。:D

and i want to tell baba, i know you're really sad and disappointed that hy is leaving. but just want to tell you this.

when you put down your baggage, everyday is a new begining.

i'm constantly reminding myself that whenever i gets emo. and i hope that helps you too. :)

anyway, 蔡淳佳's 《庆幸有你爱我》 is a beautiful song.really. :)

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Saturday, February 16, 2008/2:02 PM


friendship/valentines' day yesterday.

received lots of choco and cards from class peeps,yizhuang and huiying. how nice. luckily me n baba also got prepare. phew~ if not damn paisei one leh.

and baba n i were kind of sad dissappointed with huiying and yizhuang! they didn't really prepare things for us if they had not seen what surprise we had in place for them!(we got roses for them leh) haii. THAT'S WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR MAN. hahaha. :D

and yah. spent the rest of the afternoon preparing a card for that zjy. i think it's damn solid. haha. the words and everything. i think if you see can cry one seh. (okay. that's being kua zhang)

anyway, spent the evening+night with him. had dinner and walked around. after which he went up my house to 拜年。

MY MUM ACTUALLY GOT MY AUNT TO COME UP. AND I KNEW WHAT SHE WAS UP TO RIGHT AWAY WHEN I SAW AUNT'S SHOES ON THE DOORSTEP.

WHAT A PART TIME HOUSEWIFE AND A FULL TIME JOKER.

by the way, i think it's really quite sad irritating to be out alone on the streets during valentines' day. there you are, seeing people around you holding hands, looking so lovingly at their partners, and holding to a bouquet of flowers(at least 80% of the couples who walked passed me had that). tsk tsk. and that queue outside the flower shop is pathetically long can.
anyway, he got me a lovely keychain. the rest u can go ask baba. SINCE SHE HAD SO MUCH FUN BOASTING AND TELLING THE PEOPLE AROUND US WHAT HE HAD PREPARED FOR ME THIS VALENTINES'.

and so. that was so much for valentines' day.

had a fun time shopping with my dear huiying today. and we got really lovely presents for a lovely friend. haha. (shall still keep the person in suspense in case the person happens to drop by my blog).
and i think the loveliest thing of all is how i managed to wrap up the gifts so nicely. KUDOS TO MYSELF. ;D (im getting more and more impressed with my giftwrapping and cardmaking skills.hah.)

and im so looking forward to tmr's highlights of the day-拜年 at ms toh's house! finally can see edwardsee,tohbenghow,wendy,meihong,yiting........ so high now leh! haha.

alright alright. i think im going to stop here. cya.
bye~

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Friday, February 15, 2008/8:15 AM


i think i still like this skin and song more. ;D

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Wednesday, February 13, 2008/10:53 AM


when i woke up this morning.

it was then that dawned on me. yilin has left us for aussie.

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/10:27 AM


hey. im back.

oh my. i really HATE pe. jc pe really really really(x5764389470)--a recent trend where alot of no. must be put to show that it really does: sucks.

ahh. feel like dropping out of jc. X)

anyway, it's been a really long time since i blogged. so there's gonna be alot of things to blog about.

starting from 初一:

first thing in the morning go my aunt's there bai nian. we were the first but the relatives start coming in.

nothing much lah. it's just some giving hongbao session. then some gambling when my luck was unbelievably solid. i got bunluck for dunno how many times. until my cousins say i 出老千。haha.
then is the taking of the family photo. i tradition of ours every year.




after that around afternoon time jiu chiong to mapo!
PS:mapo totally rocks!

it's been a long time since i saw my grandparents,aunts and cousins. nice to see them again lah.

but cos it's new year, basically all the shops are closed during chu yi n chu er. so both the days are just slacking at home. the adults play mahjiong like nobody's business. from morning play till afternoon, eat lunch then from afternoon play until night again. hah.

then the rest of us just crap, laugh, watch tv. nothing to do actually. but its still very fun lah.
anyway, the sentence we say the most at grandma house is "哇!浓浓的鸡粪味~”

就是喜欢 ah ma 家。逃离了城市的喧闹。感受到的是那一份久违的宁静。那里的生活很简单。ah gong ah ma 有空就带带孙,养鸡,种树。:D

anyway, chu er, we went to watch cj7! quite a nice show actually. very funny lor. and there's a part which is really touching lah.
we sat on the first row and i turned behind and i saw lots of people wiping their tears. hahaha.
the best part is that watch movie in malaysia is really cheap! RM8 only leh!!!!! solid seh. then the show is in cantonese which is their original sound. so it's really very nice lor.
this is the first time i watched movie in malaysia!

and yah. i think the pirated cd conmpany is really very efficient sia. chu san only the pirated vcd for cj7 is already out. nice one. actually wanted to buy back to watch with jiji one. but my aunt say the quiality very 逊掉。so i didn't buy.

ok.then chu san celebrated my ah ma's birthday. 七十大寿 seh. ordered buffet and all the grandchildren pooled money to buy her a pair of golden earing. 几美丽一下~(i remember giving her a mahjiong cup b4 for her birthday a few years back. hahaha. an utterly stupid present i know.)


the 4 sisters.
二姨,三姨,my mum, 小姨
i think of all the ah yis, my mum is the craziest one lah. she really a big joker sia. but that's only when she is back at her 娘家.she like siao ding dong like that lor. i also cannot tahan her seh.
the way she laugh is really loud lah. i think i 遗传 from her one seh. then evytime she scolds vulgarities i would always say:eh.不要每次随随便便骂粗话leh. and she never fails to reply: aiyoh.我就是这样子的lor.去任别人做你的 lao bu lah! -_="'
anyway, my mum hates 客家人。so she everytime tells me and my sis 以后嫁谁都好,die die also cannot marry 客家人。hahaha. can't help but laugh at her crazy-ness.
well, i think only when she is back at her 娘家, she can be that happy man. ;D

anyway, chu si morning, my third aunt went back already. she lives in alor star so she sets off real early in the morning. haii. when she left i saw her 眼眶泛泪 seh. 我想我们永远都不会明白一个嫁到这么远的地方,一年只能回家一次的女儿的感受吧。

不知道ah gong ah ma 又是怀着什么样的心情去送走自己的孩子?每年新年,所有的孩子都会回到外婆家。一家人住在一间房子。就是有那种“家”的感觉。每当孩子们都得离开始。那曾经充满欢笑声的家,一下子又变成了那空荡荡的房子。:'(

anyway, ah ma house really rocks. minus off the 鸡粪味,the mosquito bites and lack of much shopping malls, it is really a nice place. haha.

and yup. so was back in singapore on sunday.

monday went to school as usual but after school went to huiying's house!! jiji gatehring seh. and it was YUPING'S birthday too! ;D
huiying's house really damn nice lah. and her parents also damn good.




took some photos before yuping n turbo arrive.

and hello. her karaoke system is updated and i can only describe it as SOLID. and HOLY SHIT! yeah. super shiok leh! we sang for quite long then went to have steamboat with her parents. had alot of fun with jiji lah. after that was just some more singing session. we then ended off with 《朋友》。几 sad 一下 wor.

then we went to lao yusheng and sing her a birthday song with our traditional jiji birthday cake. hahaha.









on the mrt, we took some random photo and kissing photos. all of us kissed the birthday girl!


lol. yz machiam some bian tai se mo. ready to eat up yuping!


then it's this really sweet photo of her kissing yuping.



and turbo.


and baba.

PS: i dunno what happened. mine and huiying's photo cannot open seh. :'(











and had really great time with jiji today and i really missed turbo lah. very long nv see her le. she just shock us with that golden hair of hers. hahaha.

after which we rushed down to changi airport to send yilin off to australia.
reached terminal 3 and met up with jieying,xiao han, cixian,and yong bin they all. took some photos while waiting for yilin to come.


jiji with our manager. ;D


jiji ;D





i didn't even know these photos were taken. haha.

randomness.
huiying's weight. lol.










the shirt we prepared for yilin.

xiao han is really damn solid seh. she drew it can.

then we took a group photo before she went to the departure hall.


the girls with yilin.

everyone.
and then this is the time. when all of us felt that sadness gushing up and down thoughout our body.

all of us hugged yilin and whispered a word or two to her. then some of us started to cry.
she then went on to hug her family. and everyone in the family cried leh. i felt so sad man. it was such a touching scene. :'(

sincerely hoped that yilin would be happy there.
god bless. and everyone, cheer up! ;)

after that went to clementi and eat then took yz's bro's car back home! yay~

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Thursday, February 7, 2008/7:00 PM


well done. im sleeping now. ;D

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/5:49 PM


decided to 守岁for my parents. hence you still see me blogging at this hour. haha.

anyway, had reunion dinner with my family just now. it just seemed that new year is no longer new year now. you understand? that feeling and that atmosphere is different now. nothing is the same.

im starting to think, how many more years this tradition of coming to my house for reunion dinner on the eve of chinese new year is going to continue. when we all start to grow up, and then get busy with our own lives.

things are already changing. the excitement, the joy, the anticipation is no longer that prevalent.
and that "YAY!!!!!!IT'S CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!" kind of mood is missing too. :'(

the countdown, the shouting of "HUAT AH!", the singing of new year songs and yadayadayada. where have they all gone?(though my mabo(drunk) dad did shout "HUAT AHHHH!!!" real loud at 12am sharp. hahas.--he is crazy)

anyway, i recalled. last year of the eve of chinese new year, i was chiong-ing maths papers! solid. HAHAHAHA.

oh yah.random fact. i still owe yongbin money. tsk tsk. bu hao leh. not suppose to owe people money one right? -_-"'

and watched 27dresses with jy ytd. a nice show. ;D

okokok. i think that's about it. just hope that everyone would have a great new year then.

byebye~

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Wednesday, February 6, 2008/9:19 AM


hey guys.

gonna be new year real soon. so so so happy!

cos new year= slack= eat= sleep= play= laugh= enjoy= gamble= rich= talk= all the happy things.
and it's been long since i went back to grandma house. ;D

so meanwhile, i wouldn't be updating my blog. probably be back on sunday.

anyway, i think it's really time i realise the fact that each and everyone of us are so going to have our own group of new friends that would accomapany us down this 2 year jc route or the 3yr poly route.

we have to start having new friends, yeah?

saw these few sentences which i thought it was meaningful.

Beautifully stated....
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.

You'll have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.

You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.

You'll fight with your best friend.

You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.

You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

so hope everyone will have a blessed and prosperous new year. take care lots and collect many many many ang baos! heehee.

cya guys real soon. ;D

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Monday, February 4, 2008/1:54 AM


HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YILIN!

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/1:18 AM


these are the gifts for yilin.


and there are 2 more to come. a notebook with all our wishes(which sure gonna make her cry like dunno what shit while she is reading) and a tshirt specially designed by xiaohan that would be given to her on the day of her flight.


the very beautiful photoframe. ;D



and the gifts.


yilin prepared something for each and everyone of us.



the back of the card.


though the party was kind of 逊掉 somehow. but i think i really must thank TOKYONGBIN,ONGCIXIAN & CHERYL.
thanks for being part of the commitee. you guys had really really been a super-duper great help. thanks for always cooperating and supporting my decisions and plans and everything else. thanks for always volunteering to lessen my workload despite your busy schedule.
without you guys, the party wouldn't be possible afterall.

of course, gotta thank JIEYING,XIAOHAN,YUPING,ALICIA,JUNYANG,KAIYAO,BRAM,WARREN,KANG for contributing whatever they can. and for making the party so enjoyable(i hope somehow).

like what yongbin says, how many times in your life can you have all your good friends gather together and say things that is from the bottom of our heart and cry together!

anyway, it was a heart-wrenching scene during the time when we all sit together and say something to yilin. the tears are just not so obedient and yeah.they just gushed out.
though i am not really very close friends with yilin, it was still a 4 year friendship. i think it's really sad to see her go.
i think i would never possess that courage she had afterall. to move away from the comfort zone and be out there alone.

that's all i have to say. i think the day of her flight gonna be really sad for her, as well as us.
hope everyone had enjoyed ourselves afterall and again, everything is worth this. :D

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/1:10 AM


thanks jieying for preparing something for my birthday. she bought a cake? (i dunno what's the name for it) and yeah. it's nice! ;D

some birthday gifts:


from xiao han.



from cheryl.



from yongbin and kaiyao.

thank you very very very much. im really fortunate to have friends like you all. ;D

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Sunday, February 3, 2008/5:25 AM


went back to co with yuping.

met her at gombak station and we went for breakfast at the alif. just to say, they serve really good pratas. ;D

anyway, m really glad and happy to see yuping again! cos i really missed her alot. glad that she's doing fine now. and she mentioned that she missed me alot too! *beams*

it's really nice being with her lah. we can really talk about anything and everything under the sun.

and yeah. we went back and saw the juniors. they are preparing hard for the upcoming concert.(hah. and i shall 顺便宣传 the concert. it would be held at republic poly's cultural theatre. tix price is 10bucks. date is march23,sunday. time: 6-8pm---support us!!!! ;D)

then ms lim came and we followed her to the staffroom. and then it's just some crapping session with ms lim and mdm xu. haha. it really feels great to see the teachers again. and swiss do rocks. in swiss, i got to know the best teachers and best friends. ;D

anyway, got this cca volunteer pass and i can now go back to swiss anytime. welldone.

and yep. that's about it and i just want to tell yuping, you made my day so nice and sweet. thank you. ;D

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Friday, February 1, 2008/1:53 PM


that feeling of lonliness is coming back to me unknowingly again.
i don't know why.

physically, i have friends and classmates around me. yet, mentally, i felt so lonely. what is exactly happening.

im seriously missing yuping. so much so that i wanna weep when i thought of her. what to do? i wanted so much to have her sitting beside me again. i wanted so much to go back to the past again. but nobody's going to turn back the clock for me; nobody's gonna bring me a ride through the time machine and in a moments time, im back to the past. nobody's gonna stay stagnant with me and not move on, continue with life. nobody's gonna be like me now, not facing and accepting the reality.

yes. nobody. nobody. nobody.

come on. i thought im getting on fine. i thought i am. i was seriously okay a few days/weeks back. but suddenly. i think i am not very fine now.

yuping, when you are not around, things aren't the same again.

感觉像失去了点什么。永远要不回了。永远失去了。
是朋友,还是那一份快乐。那一份曾经属于我的快乐。

sorry. im very sorry. for no good reason, im emo-ing.
sorry.

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