Sunday, March 30, 2008/2:44 PM
went to AC's carnival.

no offence but these are reasons why it's a bad decision to go:
1)the day is freaking hot.
2)the food they are selling is freaking expensive.
3)basically it's extortion!
4)we did nothing most of the time
5)the thing we enjoyed most is sitting at the air-conditioned hall crapping.
6)the school is freaking far away from the mrt station.
7)ppl are stereotyping me

typical scenario:

any swiss peeps: eh hi!
me : hello!
any swiss peeps: oh yah. you're here because of jy right? haha OR oh yah hor. jy is in AC. haha
me : ermm...*before i could speak*
any swiss peeps: okay. bye! OR there there! jy is there!

fish.

okay. i admit lah. i went there is bcos of him. but then it's because i give him face mah. he come my concert leh. i don't go his carnival a bit bu tai hao right?

left the school ard 2pm or so.bh n yz went home(i suppose) while i went off to meet my sis. we walk walk and then went home quite late! haha.

mama not at home. zhao fan la!

anyway, mama not at home=no dinner. sigh. so we went to cold storage and found this pizza that cost 1/2 the originl price. BUT BUT BUT! the expiry date is tml! LOL.

we were in such a dilemma. to buy or not to buy? argh.

unable to resist the price temptation,we bought it in the end. by the time we reached my cousin's home, come on. its ard 9pm. so its just a few hours before it became expire. lol. but with the not-kiasi-at-all spirit, we ate the pizza. :D
okay lah. it's nice. haha. doesnt taste wrong in anyway.
and me being such a glutton, after seeing weiming's blog about how solid the ramly burger taste, im so freaking tempted to have it.

haha. so we bought the chicken patty, burger bread and eggs.

tadah! ramly burger!!!!!!!

lol. it was a failure.
the egg that was supposed to wrap the patty became scrambled eggs instead.
the chicken patty literally became chicken nuggets when we deep fry it.
the chili sauce we used was EXPIRED!!!!!!
fish. we didn't know it's expired can? only after we almost finished everything and we looked at the expiry date :11-8-2007
well done and GG to us.

alright. so after this disastrous cooking session, me, my sis and my cousin conclude that we are so gonna be lao gu po for the rest of our life. forget about getting married already--->we know nuts about cooking.
though my cousin still assure herself, aiya. got maid one got maid one. don't worry.
oh well. fine then. x)

awww. i missed proper dinner. haha. with mum's cooking.

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Saturday, March 29, 2008/11:51 AM
why can't every friday be good friday?

well well well. im just lamenting about this throughout the whole day.

Oooo. it rained freaking heavily today!

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Friday, March 28, 2008/11:35 AM
heyheyhey!

im finally finally blogging. haha.
hmmm. how should i start.

alright. starting from

FRIDAY, 21st MARCH

it's our 4month anniversary! so. met up with my ah lao around evening time. as what you guys can see from his entry, we took the train from cck all the way to marina bay. (note: this is also known as nothing-better-to-do)
-_="'

after reaching marina bay, we took the train back. not all the way back to cck of course. (phew~) but we alighted at city hall(if i remember correcly).
still nothing else better to do, we went to the esplanade. sat outside for quite some time.
what did we do there? basically NOTHING. okay. we did something lah.
1)talked nonsense
2)ppl come and ask us to take photo for them
3)he dozed off cos he was too tired
4)took a photo


ok. at least there was a photo.

then afterwhich we went for dinner and we were seriously seriously full like stupid shit. haha. then planning to buy him a cake, i wandered off from him then made my way to the nearest cakeshop, which is like really far away. argh.

okay. i didn't really bought a whole cake but only a slice. hahaha. aiya. one whole cake sure cannot finish de mah. so may as well buy just enough for him. 意思意思就好 right? haha.

alright. so lit up the candle and asked him to sing himself a birthday song. haha. like that then special mah. ok anyway. i sang in the end and he took a hell long time making his wishes.

wad the fish. he really took a long time! never seen anyone make wish also make so long one leh. ultimate sia.

so after he finished his cake, passed him his birthday present. a present that much time and effort had been put into and i felt so proud of myself for it.

*drumrolls* tada!


几美丽一下，两下，三百多下喔~
it's a cross stitch! so pretty right? i can only say he is really very fortunate. hahaha.

SATURDAY, 22nd MARCH


went back to co early in the morning for the last practice. feeling so freaking excited over! co concert is tomorrow!!!! WOAH. haha.

anyway, had fun with the juniors and alumnis that went back. this could well be the last time we get to really perform on stage together le. when would there be such chances again?

hmmm. so practice was alright and was seriously looking forward to tml's concert lah. after practice, me,jy,cx and yp went to the nearby coffee shop to have lunch. eat chicken rice! very long since we get to eat together after leaving swiss.

why is it so that only after we have left swiss, such little little meet-ups became so precious and enjoyable?

it's strange to just automatically feel : ahh. when would it be our next meet up again? would we still get to sit down together and have meals many months/years down the road? are we still going to keep in touch after this meeting? :'(

so anyway, after the lunch, i went for bbco practice. so in fact, my saturday was totally burnt off with co practices! after practice went back home and chiong-ed my homework but it was not productive lah. no mood sia. but i ended up sleeping at 2am which is seriously a stupid thing to do. argh.

SUNDAY, 23rd MARCH

and this day finally arrived. BIG BIG day for scco.

went to school and on the way met jieying. sigh, missed those times when i walked to school with her lah. how that short trip could turn out so fun and entertaining for me! how we talked about anything under the sun. and those times when we went for runs in the morning in school. haha. memories sia!

anyway, by the time we went into the school and reached co room, things are kind of chaotic cos you see those co peeps running and scrambling around looking for this looking for that.

when was the last time we saw such scenes? when was the last time we were also in this excited state?

helped out with the carrying of instruments and things like that.(yuping, your zhongyinsheng is freaking heavy lah!) afterwhich all of us boarded the bus and off we go!----->Republic Poly!

come on. RP is really freaking nice. not just the outer view but the theatre where the concert is held is also extremely classy too. the stage, the seats and everthing. WOAH. seriously impressed!

then we had a dressing room allocated for different sections.hmm. you may find this para a bit sua-ku sia. haha. initially, the boys in woodwinds thought that our "dressing room" was in that very DARK corner behind the stage. LOL. it is indeed VERY VERY dark and it looked as though it was some kinda huge storerooms for the props. and the boys changed into their long sleeves in that DARK CORNER.

later, the girls(we all) came and we too thought that the DARK CORNER is our "dressing room".

okay, we are ALL SUA KU!

then suddenly i opened a door beside that DARK CORNER, and i found herself in a REAL DRESSING ROOM. we were like, omg are we that mountain turtle? damn paiseh lah! -.-THE DRESSING ROOM IS INDEED A VERY NICE ROOM FOR DRESSING! there were light bulbs around the mirrors, like the ones in ge tai backstage.

then there we go again, the way sua kus do...Some woodwinds girls: SCREAMING like AHHHAHHH! SO NICE!

me: hey, SHH! close the door pls.

*door closed*

me: SCREAMS! AHHHHHHHHHHH WOOOHOOOO!!!

then all: SCREAMS!!!!!!!!!!okay, that's very lame i know. but we ALL are first-timers, for visiting such a nice dressing room. LOL!(this dressing room part is edited from ruixiang's blog!)

photos taken at the very solid dressing room:






then finally the time is here!

---SWISS ORCHESTRA NITE 2008---

saw alot of familiar faces turning up for the concert. thanks everyone, for turning up and supporting us.
your presence made the concert a success.
your applause made all our hardwork worthwhile.
your cheers made us want to give you our very best performance.

i can only say scco is really a very special cca.
it's a place where i met my best friends.
it's a place i get to know the best teachers.
it's a place i get to know the best ever juniors.
it's a place i get the most memorable and heart-warming memories.

scco, you rock. you are the best. always the best.

i am so going to start lamenting about the fact that.
yes. time flies; time waits for no man.
out of a sudden, im back to scco as an alumni.
out of a sudden, im back to scco as an ex-chairlady.
out of a sudden, my juniors are also going to leave swiss co. or even swiss.

i think the concert was a real success. though there might be hiccups here and there, i believed eveyone did well. kudos to everyone especially to woodwinds!

my beloved section. my beloved juniors. my beloved instructors.
it feels good to be still part of them you know. but as batches and batches of juniors step down and pass out, the feeling changes. scco doesnt feel so scco anymore.
you might not get it. cos you have to go through such feelings before you can understand.

anyway, sincerely wished scco all the best.

MONDAY, 24th MARCH

PE TOTALLY ROCKS YOU KNOW.

reasons why pe rocks:
1) it's so freaking fun running 7 rounds.
2) it's so not tired at all to come back in 2 and 1/5 mins for each round.
3) it's so nice of my pe teacher to punish us when we couldn't hit the targeted time.(be it too fast or too slow)

and yeah. so pe really rock!

TUESDAY, 25th MARCH

wow.
IT FELT SO GREAT TO HAVE PE ON 2 CONSECUTIVE DAYS!

we did all sorts. come on. i really meant all sorts of jump stunts today. 10 fingers also not enough to count what we did. well done.
it is as though ytd's pe is not bad and disastrous enough.

i tell you im seriously aching all over now. ALL OVER. my shoulders, my stomach, my thighs.

fish.

WEDNESDAY, 26th MARCH

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHOU JUNYANG!!!!!

lol. welcomed another member into the 17 year old gang.
well, wasn't suppose to meet up or celebrate with him since we already celebrated in advance last friday. but tyb and cky came up with a treasure hunt plan and yeah, i participated.

roughly discussed with them what to do and tada! im at imm's garden plaza waiting for him to come find me! waited for half an hour before he finally arrived.

obviously he was very shocked to see me. haha.
anyway, all 3 of them sang birthday song for him and he cut the cake.

lol. he again used a long time to make his wish lah. buay tahan sia.

and yeap. after eating the cake, ky n yb went off. we sat and chatted abit but we're really too tired so decided to go home.

at the escalator at je interchange. heard 2 very irritating laughter. didn't care much though. but jy turned and to his surprise, it was tyb n cky.

fish.
no wonder the laughter so wicked lah. haha.

okay. so after we went home lah. he passed me something he bought while he was doing his treasure hunt task 1. yeap. so that's about it. a very special birthday surprise he got from his buddies indeed. :D

THURSDAY, 27 th MARCH

mummy,dad and bro together with some uncles and aunties left for msia early this morning.
wouldn't be back until sunday.

so for this few days, only me, sis and a cousin are alone at home. sian.

missed mum a little sia.
too used to her presence i supposed. :(

mummy not at home= no breakfast, no lunch, no dinner. no everything lah. sigh.

boo! my body is still aching over now. sigh.

okay. i really nidda go off now. will try to update as much as possible if im free.
bye~

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Sunday, March 23, 2008/2:45 PM
oh my. im freaking busy.

freaking freaking busy.

so i shall not blog. give me some time.

sorries!

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Saturday, March 22, 2008/5:52 AM
don't be sad. you aren't in the wrong blog. it's still sinting's fantasy. haha.

changed the background music.
sounds familiar to those who had watched sky of love. yeap. it's the background music in the movie. i thought it was extremely nice and decided to put it here. hope you don't mind. :)

that's when i love you would be back. well, shortly. :D

so. it's good friday today. and coincidentally. it's the 4th month anniversary of me n my ah lao. so it's good wonderful friday :)
alright. we're meeting later to have dinner and celebrate his birthday in advance.
no idea exactly what we are going to do actually.

anyway, hasn't been blogging recently as was not quite in the mood to blog. and also there aren't really any interesting stuffs happening.

school until now was okay. not as demanding yet. not as tough yet. which is good!

friends wise, our class ppl are okay too. the girls are quite friendly somehow. just that the guys are quite a problem.

some too quiet. some too guai lan.

fish.

cca was fine too. did i mention i was in eco club? together with a whole lot of swiss ppl. ahahaha. almost 2/3 of the club make up of PISS peep! could see that they didn't really wanted eco club. it was out of desperation. no ccas to join already. x)

it's swiss co concert this sunday! freaking excited and looking forward to it. afterall, this time round it's not my concert but the juniors. i am back just to help out and have fun! and i knew it would be really fun.
hmm. first time on stage as an alumni. sounds professional eh?

and the really great thing is, alot of ex sec4s of swiss are coming to the concert to support!
am really feeling excited all over now.
sincerely hope that he concert would be a success. see you guys there~ :)

this weekend was supposed to be busy. busy reading up on my notes. busy with practices. busy with meetings. busy with activities.
but have actually been hogging the computer from 12pm or so until now. and i seriously dunno what i have been doing. haha.

random fact#1: using com is really a good way of wasting your time.

oh yah. went about editing photos and hence there are changes to the photos at my profile. very fun to edit photos sia. ;)

alrights. that's all about it. see if i can update you guys on what we did after i get back home tonight. bye~

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Wednesday, March 19, 2008/9:05 AM
saw how my sis she paniced and struggled through what course she is going to take for her university education. argh.
i picture myself in her situation 2 years from now.

i have basically no course in mind to enter.
i have basically no interests.
i have basically no strenghts for me to further develop.
basically no course would want me: with no good grades, no good cca records, no nice portfolio.
i have basically no future. =

oh my.

i told my sis that and she said just get straight A's and you will have everything.
HAHA.

i did laugh it off. but it starts to get into my brain this fact that. yes, maybe i really have to get the straight A's.

fish.

anyway, shall get this out of my mind for the time being. nothing i can do except to really mug hard from this moment onwards.

alrights. so 2nd day of school was okay.

nothing really special or significant happened today.

i really woke at 7am n i wasn't late anyway.

i tin that's really all.

no feel to blog. haha

so bye! ;)

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Tuesday, March 18, 2008/8:01 AM
the very first day of school.

kick start with this release of pw question thing.
thought this year's questions are rather interesting.

"Journeys" & "Modernisation"
gdgdgd. i think im doing journeys.

anyway,then it was PE. argh. my pe teacher's napfa target for all her classes is a silver and above.
COOL EH. GG to me and i think im in for a tough time ahead.
by the way, pe now is still running.
and there are 2 pe lessons per week you know. cosecutive somemore.

wad the fish.

okay.then was chem tutorial. dio a new teacher who is damn chio. haha. enjoyment to see her with new sets of clothes and high heels everyday sia.
thought she was quite okay lah. though i really prefered my pae chem tutor. Sigh, but nvm. must 给机会她。new teachers can sometimes be good ones too. :)

anyway, something happened that jolt me into laughter during her lesson today.
there was this indian guy sitting behind me. then he tried to ask the tutor a question. but she just couldn't get it. maybe because of his indian accent. she kept "huh? huh? can you repeat?"

wad the fish.

it's freaking funny can. partly because i couldn't uds the first time he said also. cos it was too fast for me to catch. lol. sia la. im still giggling now can. then also because the teacher damn cute. kept asking the guy to repeat. wah lao. buay tahan.

afterwhich was GP. nice one. the tutor damn funny. he started off by taking attendance and that whole process just got the whole class laughing like stupid shit.

the first girl in the class was an indian girl. usually indians have their father's name at the back or somewhere along the name. and then the tutor suddenly shouted a very unfamiliar name and none of us knew who it was, until this indian girl shouted: "here! and that's my father's name......"

*the whole class and the teacher then BURST OUT IN LAUGHTER.*
lol!it's freaking funny can? imagine urself in the classroom, sitting down and doing ur stuffs and suddenly the teacher shouted your father's name. wad the hell. it might not sound funny at all to the rest of you lah. it's an insider joke anyway. but i really thought it was damn funny! hahaha.

anyway, this tutor talks damn damn damn fast. i swear. non-stop and at a super-duper-fast-like-dunno-wad-shit pace. but he is also quite demanding. but all in all, i quite like him lah. his previous j2 class's gp results was a 45% "A"s and "B"s leh!
suddenly gp doesnt sound hopeless to me anymore. x)

then was pw. coincidentally(and also very suay), our civics tutor is also our pw tutor(+ pe teacher). didn't quite like her but you know. heaven likes to make a sport on people. i kena pw rep. argh.
forget it la. who knows? i might eventually like her somehow.

last period was maths. nothing much.

random fact #1: i think it's really time to get used to hanging around with indian classmates. i just realised i hadn't been in contact with any indian friends throughout my 4 years in swiss. 4e5 then was largely populated with chinese(which consists of racist peeps).

random fact #2: everytime that indian guy behind me talks, i couldnt help but giggle abit. cos i would always be reminded of how tohgenghow and zhoujunyang and every other ppl who mimic bangladesh accents. i know it's being rude. but i promise i wld try to get over it.

random fact #3: my civics tutor/pw tutor/pe teacher has this very strange habit of clearing her throat every now and then when she talks. argh. which kinds of irritates and amuses me. it reminded me of how me and kaiyao laughed so hard at a GSC teacher cos she practically clears her throat for every sentence she says. and it sounded so funny and disgusting.

random fact #4: kaiyao kena that clear throat teacher as his GSC tutor. haha.

random fact #5: i decided to wake up at 7am tomorrow morning instead of the usual 6.30am. am trying how late i can actually sleep until and that i wun be late.

random fact #6: i almost exposed my blog to other people when i accidentally tagged at yz's blog. argh. so decided to lie my way through to keep this blog private. so anyone who knew i was lying while explaining myself, pls dun expose me. i like the way my blog is now, with only the special few who get to see it.

random fact #7: congrats ppl, we survived the first day of school. cheers!

and so that's about it. bye!

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Monday, March 17, 2008/6:57 AM
come on. school's starting tomorrow.

argh.*eyes choking with tears*

ok lah. that's being dramatic. school start school start lah. machiam end of the world. chey.

anyway, im suddenly so so so obsessed with koizora. went to its official website and was greeted with such nice backgrounds and everything. wah seh.

http://koizora-movie.jp/index.html

go take a look if ure free and nth better to do. check out everything! though it may be in japanese lah. but if you are one who had watched the movie before, u wld surely love the web. i seriously loved it to bits. ;D suddenly feel like smashing into the wall cos i dunno jap! argh.

anyway, went to visit yuping on friday. walked around bugis junction,bugis streets,BHG for a hell long time just to wait for her to be let off from work. argh.
afterthat we ate at foodcourt. shall not post up the photos lah. i lazy. haha.

then we walked ard to shop for her bag. didn't get one in the end but we ended up getting into a shop that has this crazy sale. just want to say it's really freaking crazy sale and i shall not continue to talk about all these boring stuffs.

so basically i have nothing much to talk about already. nothing very special happened and i tin i am kind of rushing through my entry cos i realise it's not early already. haha. my tutorials are bugging me you know.

so bye~

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Thursday, March 13, 2008/4:12 PM
woo. i have been mugging! that's why i didn't blog. ahahahaha.

wad a liar. x)

okay. basically i squandered off my hols doing dumb stuffs. not really dumb stuffs but things that are not very much of a priority but still am supposed to do.

nonetheless, i did my tutorials quite dutifully too. i tried my hands on maths,chem and 1 pathetic qns on physics. kudos!
and it's been hell long time since i sat on the study table, turned on the radio and started getting on with serious business.

anyway, im very happy today.

bcos i put down a part of my baggage.
bcos i dreamt of seeing rainbow the night before.
bcos i saw the sky.
bcos i manage to count the stars.
bcos of every single thing that happened today after my mad flow of tears.

这样的快乐，这样的幸福，很实在。

okay. so let me recall what happened a few days b4.
tuesday:

went back to co for practice.

after practice rushed off to meet zjy cos we're catching a movie, which was highly recommended by my juniors whom watched it and err. cried like siao.

anyway.the movie was sky of love. 《恋空》;)


alright. reached orchard cineleisure and holly shit. only left some single seats that are available for the 7pm slot. so decided not to watch it.

then we dine at kfc. and 2 ppl sat beside us, who zjy insisted that they are attending a matchmaking session cos of the things that they talk about. alright. i admit they really do sound as if they are getting to know each other and yeah. haha.

random fact #1: we were extremely bored and hence played 2men bridge.

afterwhich we went to get the 9.35pm tickets for the movie. and then we have about 1h 30 mins of dunno-what-to-do time. (reminds me of my breaks at pioneer.haha)
so we went out onto the streets and walked. shall not spell out the details. there are no details anyway. we just walked and talked. which is more than enough to make me feel happy and contented. :)

suddenly reminded of the sec 4 times we had and we thought it had been really solid.
how every one teased us.
how every one said sorry to him when the ball hits me.
how ppl like jiji,edward and benghow made chances for us to sit together.
how yp told me he is looking at me.
and yadayadayada.

anyway.so we went for the movies and though the storyline was a little bit typical, it was really quite sad and nice afterall. loved the male and female lead to bits can.
and i tin it's worthwhile la. and i shall not be a spoilsport to give you all the details. go watch it. and cry! x)
somehow i think im abit slow in processing informations. it just dawned on me now that, yeah, the show is really sad! did dropped a tear or two at the cinema then. sigh. ending was rather heart-wrenching too, you know. :'(

alright. after the movie,its already late. in fact very very late. went to the bus stop and GG to us. we missed the last bus for 190. continue to search around for any bus that can bring us to somewhere nearer. and so we eventually took a bus that drives us to clementi interchange. reached there and the street is empty you know. and it is cold. and nobody is around. and we are alone on the streets. so at such a(romantic) moment, what did we do? ............... hahaha.

TAKE A CAB LAH. what more can we do. chey.

he got off the cab first before me. so along bukit batok road after he alighted, saw army guys standing by the sides of the road. driving past them only attract their attention sia. they peered into the cab and as though i looked somewhat like mas selamat. okay. that's not the main thing. the main thing is that they are really very ke lian. got to stand on the streets throughout the night and pay attention to any cars that drove past them.

so reached home at a holy late time and chiong into the room and buried myself under the covers to save myself from a session of interrogation.

alright. wedesday.
couldn't really make out what i did that day cos it wasn't significant in any way. was just a boring day staying at home.

oh. celebrated my little cousin's birthday at night. that's all.

today:
ex 08s13 gathering in the afternoon. as usual, they cldnt agree on any one movie to wacth and so they didn't watch any. proceeded to ernest's house after that.

movie marathon for the girls! which was extremely solid can.

2 thriller movie and 1 love(somewhat i thought its quite spooky also) movie.

what do i mean by the "love" story?
well, it was secret. bu neng shuo de mi mi.
yeah. haha. it might have been really late to watch it only now but at least i manage to watch it! quite a nice and sweet movie i must say. and kind of sad too. but didn't manage to cry cos you know. the guys are on the mahjiong table joking around. so it's really hard to cry in such an atmosphere lah. x)

and the 2 thriller movie were well, really scary and thrilling. haha. i swear. damn nice.
resident evil: apocalypse and resident evil: extinction
basically for the whole 2 show, my heart is in my mouth. haha. sounds pathetically fake. but ok. it's really scary. =x

after that was just some eating session and home sweet home! shall not bore u guys with such mundane details. :)

after days and days of rainy nights and cloudy night skies, for once, the sky was finally clear and filled with twinkle twinkle little stars. ;)
how beautiful. i was extremely happy and delighted. his msg came and we chatted a bit b4 he went to sleep. i continued my star-gazing and for once, i felt so relieved. relieved of everything that kept me bothered all these while.

and so now, it's good night and sweet dreams. :D

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Tuesday, March 11, 2008/8:48 AM
放假了。感觉真好。虽然开学这么久以来都没什么认真读书。但还是难免会觉得。。。也不懂该怎么说。总之，放假了的感觉还真得挺不错的。

今天的天气阴阴的。下了一整天的雨。

喜欢雨天。

总觉得雨天会使人特别的多愁善感。
总觉得雨天会使周遭的环境变得特别宁静。
总觉得雨天是个很适合安安静静，想事情的时间。


不跟你说你不信，我，正在是学习如何跟思念相处。

开学后，你想见到的人，你想一起说话的人，你想一起出去玩的人。。。。这些人，也许再也不能像现在这样，说见就见，说聊天就聊天，说出去玩就出去玩了。

忙碌，很快就要找上我们了。怎么躲也躲不掉。它会像强力胶那样，死粘着我们，怎么甩也甩不掉！

所以在接下来的两年里，思念和忙碌会陪着我度过每一个失眠的夜晚。（哇。实在有够悲惨~~）


嗨~
当你真的打从心底想念一个人的时候，该怎么办？
当你感到寂寞，孤独，无助，想找一个人聊天，但又深怕其他人都在忙的时候，该怎么办？
当哪一天你的另一个他/她不再爱你了，但你却还深爱着他/她，该怎么办？


每个人都有治疗心中伤痛的方法。喝酒，唱歌，发火，或笑，或哭，跟朋友诉苦，去旅行，跑马拉松。。。

最差的一种方法是选择逃避这种心痛。

其实，那些眼睛看不到的伤口才是最深最痛的。几乎每个人都是背负着这种眼睛看不到的伤口生活在这个世界上的。所以那些可以用眼睛看到的伤口会因为能够被别人看到和理解而变成一种幸运。而那些别人看不到的伤口也会因为永远不能被别人看到和理解而变得更深更痛。

我也不懂为什么忽然间会要有这个entry，有这样的启发。
也许是看了yongbin 的 entry.
也许是因为雨天.
也许是自己的写照.

但绝对不是emo.

我是属于那种比较情绪化的人，所以请不要被我起伏不定的情绪给吓坏了。;)

我喜欢以书写的方式表达自己。当我写完，我的疼痛便会得到治疗。那一行一行的字便是我的病历表。

anyway,yongbin! cheer up! 我可以明白你的感受。因为我也常常像你那样感到孤独。
在swiss,一个人时，我也从来不会感到寂寞。但在pioneer,就算是一群人，心还是会感到很空虚。
just want to say, it's perfectly alright and normal to feel sad. you don't have to hate that kind of feelings. instead you should just accept it,feel it and then get over it.
谁不会难过啊！even God cries.(when it rains? haha)

yeah. so go find someone to talk to. u are not alone. u are not enduring such feelings alone.
you can always go talk to ppl like, cixian?(who could well be your future partner? x) okay. i shall stop irritating you.)

you still have your best buddies like zhoujunyang and chuakaiyao.

don't worry about interupting me and zhoujunyang dating. haha. cos he is too busy to entertain me since he has got mary already. and if he decides to choose mary over you, then this kind of friend kick aside can liao. don't want also nevermind!

and of course you still got solid friends like me! ;D
so, get sad,get emo a little,and then smile!!!!!

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Sunday, March 9, 2008/11:18 AM
TODAY IS 三八妇女节！LOL.

what a day. hahahaha.

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Saturday, March 8, 2008/1:15 PM

the last slacking day.
end of 1st term=end of slacking days.

sia la. time to mug leh!
Sigh.

anyway, started the day with ct time and it was weak sia. damn sian.
received a super weak time table.
got a quiet class(i suppose)
had some ulu teachers who didn't teach us before during pae.

was freaking sad over that. but forget it. things would turn out fine. things would be better.

then it was full 3.5 hours of slacking at littlewhitehouse! damn solid. might well be the last time to have such long breaks?

random fact #1: littlewhitehouse is fast becoming swissvillage cos PISS(PI from 'PI'oneer and SS from swi'SS') peeps are starting to gather there during breaks.

random fact #2: there are at least 40 PISS members in pioneer and we are all making a PISS tee. cool.

yeah. so played psp at lwh,crapped,played cards n yadayadayada. basically we squandered away that 3.5 hours! haha.

and that's it. this is the time when people like yz,ali,jk n joseph started to say something is wrong with me and danny. SCANDALOUS.
this is bad. in fact very bad. they are making me feel uneasy all over.
come on. i am very whole hearted to my ah lao lah. and he knows im attached. so what's so scandalous about us?im not like mr zhoujunyang who is damn flirt at AC ok.(from a very reliable source but whether who he/she is should not be revealed. hahaha)
i only have my ah lao in my eyes hor. *vomit* hahaha.

anyway, so after school, me,yz n baba went to meet hy.

jiji day! yayness.

the 4 of us ate first since yp n turbo gonna be late.

not random but seriously a fact: yz is freaking scary. this is a list of what she ate today.
9am- prawn noodles
10am-waffle ice-cream
11am-chicken rice
2pm-chicken rosti
5pm-fried beehoon
WTH.

okay.so we went to play a game of pool later. (why is the whole world playing pool?tsk tsk.)

and of course, the photos taken!


understand?
me-喜 turbo-怒 huiying-哀 ali-乐


huiying act cute-ing in progress.


lol. the white figure behind looks spooky right? heh heh. it's yz who had just 飘过.... x)


group photo!


what a pose. ask hy lah. she suggest one.


haha. siao gin na.



group photo again!


无言以对


i also dunno what hy is doing. showing off her saints badge? haha.


just a random photo. ;D
and yeah. that's about it.
wait wait wait. the a lvls results are out and im so god damn impressed with my sis. that siao gin na. though not straight As. but she got 3 As(H2 maths,chem,phy) and a B(GSC)! but sad thing is she got an E for her GP. nonetheless, im really impressed with her lah.

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Friday, March 7, 2008/2:04 PM
physics lecture first thing in the morning. with the teacher we hated most. james koh.

wad a teacher. xP

it was nightmare having physics tutorial with him okay. for every lesson, he would surely call me one.

SINTING, your answer?
SINTING, can you try?
SINTING, prepare your answer for qns blablabla.

wad the fish.

anyway,im glad i am not under him anymore! (sinting suvived the ordeal~) *flashing a victorious smile*

yah.he went through on the topic which was taught during pae and it served as a form of revisio for me la. there is this make up lecture for us.which is compulsory.but we conveniently ponned it since it takes place real late.

then was chem lecture and slacking time.

afterwhich went for a meeting for those ppl exempted from mt. the cl department introduced various ccas related to chinese lanuguage and i remembered i blurted something real loudly which made me so lao kui. x)

soon it was gsc and tell you, we had hell lots of fun shaking our legs in the container classroom cos the whole floor would vibrate as though there was an earthquake. its really amusing and cldn't stop laughing lah. sat between kaiyao and yizhuang and when both of them shook their legs, woah. solid vibration. haha.

after school went to queensway with yz to get her shoes. she bought a kappa sneakers which cost quite a bomb. $69.90.
and later went over to ikea and bought some stuffs before going back home.

random fact #1: i think i am having some really bad indigestion cos my stomach seemed bloated for the whole day.

random fact #2: 我最讨厌哪种吃不肥的人.jus like yz. she is seriously a yao gui seh. eat non stop yet u wun c her growing horizontally.

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/1:02 PM
ok. emo sucks. and yes,baba. i am quitting to be your senior member in ur emo club.

im so not gonna land myself in this deep pile of shit ever again.

yesterday was emo day. today is not. tomorrow wouldn't be.

i think i need ppl to scold me,use really harsh words on me or even 甩我两巴掌 to slap me out of the emo world.(okok.save the slapping part)

anyway, i really wanted to thank my friends for leaving me encouragements after reading that stupid emo post. i dunwanna be emo kid okay.

so i would be fine.
i would be happy.
i would open up myself.
i would make sure i accept pj.
i would smile.
i would make new friends.
i would learn to let go.
i would learn to accept changes.
i would learn to move on.
i would learn to make a joke out of everything.
i would not hide and bottle up my feelings and suddenly go berserk.
i would not conceive my unhappiness.
i would not be unhappy over every little thing.

i would remind myself, when you put down your baggage, everyday is a new beginning.


remember our wonderful memories,
but please don't be afraid to make some more.

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Thursday, March 6, 2008/10:43 AM
today is emo day.

alright.had this headstart program for the whole day today which is compulsory for all to join.

the first part was on personal grooming and i tell you. that coach is so freaking handsome+shuai+yan dao+funny+joke+nice+anything good things you can describe about a guy. im serious. haha.

he started off by introducing himself and i was kind of shock to know that he is some mr singapore and had landed himself on magazine's covers and yadayadayada. damn solid i tell you.

okay.yah. so the main thing is he is really very funny as he deliver the facts to us. had a great deal of fun and laughter with him throughout. and come on. i have learnt some social etiquette which makes me a demure lady from now on. haha.(as if)

well, the 2nd part of the headstart program was not as interesting though. but overall i thought the program was nice and successful.

after everything we had around an hour's break before going for a meeting. together with ali,yz and jk, we went to our very own emo+sleep place in pioneer. the weather was cool and so me n yz slept on the floor. throughout, i opened my eyes for a few instances to see ppl walking past us looking and staring at us. haha. its amusing i believe, to see 2 lady sleeping on the floor, a girl playing with her handphone and a guy with his psp. yeah.

the wind blew and i got emo.

today is so so so cold. and today is really emo day.
don't ask why,would you?

yz and i walked in the rain and stood under the rain. suddenly we both cried. some instances for the same things while some other times for different things. there are so much 无可奈何 in life you know?

went back home,bathed and sat on the floor. and tears gushed out. no no no. i dunwan to b an emo kid. :(

i missed yuping.
i missed huiying.
i missed turbo.
i missed junyang.
i missed sec4 life.

today is emo day. :(

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Wednesday, March 5, 2008/12:24 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WENXIAN!

started the day with a mini celebration for wenxian's birthday. waited for him at the place where the swiss guys would usually meet b4 going to pj. then when he was here,sang birthday song for him. i think he damn gan dong lar!

after which proceeded to pj with the guys and yz held the cake,at the same time commenting about how 香 the cake was. she is just like a little kid you know.

and yeah. today was damn slack. break for like, 3 hours? hahaha. went to chinese lecture since all those swiss guys are going and we have nothing to do basically. afterwhich guai guai stayed for the pw lecture when ali n yz ponned and went home.

random fact #1: a guy by the name danny whom i got to know today is freaking-funny-like-dunno-what-shit. his laughter is so damn contagious and he sat beside me during chinese lecture n we laughed alot throughout. (however, yz n ali reminded me to shun away from him a little if not they are so going to tell their dajiefu aka my ah lao and this is so gonna be scandalous.) haha.

random fact #2: im freakingly enjoying my life now. with no homework,no tutorial; with long sleep hours, long breaks and yadayadayada. ;D

okay. so after pw lecture went back to swiss with kaiyao. met xuanhan at the gate and he was kana stuck there since he had got no cca pass. rushed off to search for ms toh/ms lim to save xh but to no avail. cos #1.cldnt find any of the teachers #2.ms ong coincidentally went out of school at that time and saved him. yeah.

and its co practice with my juniors. entertained them quite alot since im such a solid entertainer. haha. yah. anyway, shall of course promote the co concert even though my blog is quite ulu with little visitors. it's at republic poly's cultural theatre on 23rdmarch 6pm. price tix at $10/-. can always order ur tix from me! ;D

anyway, kind of xin teng ms lim n ms toh cos they have been really busy with co n school work these days. trying my best to lessen their burden for co by offereing as much help as i can. so hope everything would turn out fine afterall.
ppl, please remember ms toh's 金玉良言：千万不要想不开去做老师！haha. yeah. thats what she told me seh!

and after co,met jy n went for dinner at the kopitiam outside school. hadn't meet him/see him for quite some time and i admit that i missed him! so was extremly thrilled to see him after all. after dinner he sent me home. how i missed those little little walks and time spent with him. :)

after that went home and somehow emo-ed abit cos i dunno when are we going to see each other again.

and yuping.where are you.suddenly missed you alot you know. are you sneezing till ur nose gonna drop off already?

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Monday, March 3, 2008/7:31 AM
basically i have nothing to blog about. but since i got a blog, i think i should be committed to my blog and i should at least blog about something.but i think i really don't have anything to blog about currently as nothing great or interesting happened these days for me to blog.but since i already start blogging, i think i should just continue to blog about something. and as a quite-but-not-as-efficient-as-cixian blogger,i decided to fufil my responsibility and blog. and here is what i am going to blog about:

IM BORED. haha.

so fun. i am currently on this trend of anyhow-talk-and-crap-ridiculously way of talking. i tell u it's really fun. when people start reading so seriously then after they finish reading, they give that very sian diao face and start cursing and swearing. hahaha.

okay la. so i really got nothing to blog about.
yesterday went back to co and ms lim assigned me some work to do for the upcoming concert.
and i proudly label myself as SKW (sang kang warrior). haha. but actually im more than willing to offer my help lah. ;D

and yeah. after the practice, went out with ongcixian and tokyongbin. we went to queesnsway shopping centre to get our shoes.

afterwhich we parted as i need to go to a family chalet at pasir ris and they went home.

random fact:i see yongbin more than i see my ah lao this week!(basically i never see him at all)

the chalet was okay. had a barbeque session which proves to be quite fun+fattening. cos i eat as i barbeque. haha.

until 12am or so, we decided to leave. cos no place to sleep. and reached home around 1am. super tired so went to sleep and wake up today quite early for bbco.

yah. that's all. u see. i really got nothing to blog about mah.then if i don't blog people would come and tag my blog and tell me to blog. so to prevent people from coming my blog's tagboard to tag to ask me to blog, i decided to blog.but i realised i blogged on something so mumdane and boring.but nvm.since i already blogged, then dun care about what i blogged is interesting or not cos afterall it is my blog.

hahaha~

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Saturday, March 1, 2008/11:44 AM

HAPPY LEAP DAY!

haha. today is the day that occurs only once in 4 years! so cool~
currently i still don't know anyone with birthday on feb29. i think it's really cool leh!

random fact: im quite high now. haha. cos CCK sec is having some party or what-ever-they-call-it going on now. and they are playing really nice and rock english songs. hahaha. loud and clear seh. so am currently on the groove with the song~ woohoo!

anyway, jieying crashed pj today! what a stylo crasher. people pae crash. she JAE also can crash?!?!?!? damn style.
so morning she came up my house to change into pioneer uniform. she looked like a J2 sia. haha. then later walked to school feeling damn excited!

the 4E1 ppl saw jieying machiam they saw ghost. hahaha. so shocked and surprised lah.
and so she sat through maths lecture which she finds quite fun and interesting.

then is pe time for me and ali. but pon lah. we sat at littlewhitehouse and slacked. jieying ate hell lots of food. machiam yao gui. she say she wants to try. nan de come pj. haha. quite true lah. no chance liao mah.

yah. so took some photo:




sitting under our ever famous littlewhitehouse.


toilet!

yah. so i thought it was a fun day with jieying lah. got a few occasion quite scary one. when teacher take attendance and then suddenly got some attire check. then sfter school ends at 12.30pm we are not supposed to leave college.(they scared we pon cross-country lah). and during the attendance taking before cross country. quite scary lah.

but overall, it was a successful crashing attempt. ;D

took some emo photos before the run walk.


we are sitting at edge of pioneer's rooftop!



an emo photo taken by yz herself. haha.



and finally a happy photo. we failed in several attempts to take this photo you know. cos eyes always close due to the bright sunlight.


oh. and a photo of me and jy in pj house tee and pe tshirt. background looks nice eh? with the sky as the back drop....

so after all the cam-whoring we went for the walk.
got some chao siao on guys run super fast. before we even move off from starting point they already come back liao. haha.
me and jy just walked throughout the whole thing and talked alot. ;D
and yeah. that's so much for the day. it's weekend again! yay~

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