TGIF!! (thank god it's friday)
im so so so tired today. shag~
anyway it's a lousy week in school. :/
and yeah. im going back to school in an hours time for the PW lecture. sigh. im really tired.
baba said something today which really made me felt.
oh well. sad.
she wanted to pon the pw lecture later. and being the pw rep, im supposed to take the attendance. i told her i would delibrately mark her as absent later. and i was seriously joking. why would i sabo her?
and then she said something like, "哇。你 pangsei 我一个礼拜我都没有讲什么 lor."
baba, 如果我有选择，我宁愿永远都不必停学一个星期。you know what i mean, don't you?
i understand. you're didn't mean anything bad too. you didn't have any ill intentions. but.
that comment from you just went in straight into where it hurts the most.
im not angry. im just sad. am just reminded of everything.
grandma called home yesterday. talked abit and aunt called soon after that. she tried to comfort me and reminded me to take care of daddy. to keep a look out for one and other. cos all of us are going through the same thing. all of us are trying to get over the lost. all of us are feeling sad and painful. and i cried after putting down the phone.
i know it's okay to cry. it's just a sign that i missed gonggong. but it doesn't mean i couldn't get over forever.
go easy on myself for now. i know that. :)
oh well. shall stop all this emo-momo stuffs.
im fine. :D and i think i got to go off now for that bloody PW lecture. ahaha.
random fact#1: i got back my chem test result and it was a well, holy 11.5/30
random fact#2: i got back my GP essay too and i got a 27/50. quite satisfied with it actually. it's a pass okay.
