and so.
just got back from malaysia. though it's just a short 4 day trip, my feelings were like taking a ride on the roller coaster. ups and downs for umpteen times.
reaching the place couldn't help but bring back memories, not fond ones though; but bitter memories that were reminded and recollected.
the pain goes deep into the heart. :(
supposedly, that place became our shang xin di; a place that triggered painful memories.
the funeral parlor, the cemetry, ah gong's house.

the moment my aunts went into the house to offer incence, they cried so hard. and in no time, i find myself scrambling my way out of the house.
you know, crying is contagious! :(

how i missed gong gong.

he went into my dreams that day. i remembered i was crying in the dream. and as i woke up, i found myself in tears again.
how it hurts. to wake up and realise, everything was just a dream.
gong gong is not coming back, my dear.



hmmmm. alright. im okay. seriously. just wanna put down what i have gone through during that few days. that's all. so don't worry!
im going easy on myself. :)