welcome;

Wednesday, July 30, 2008/1:34 PM

明天的后天的后天的后天，你会得到你要的幸福。 :)

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Tuesday, July 29, 2008/12:06 PM

im back from malaysia.

i hadnt get over gonggong as yet. it has never been easy, i guess, to get over the lost of someone. perhaps theres nothing more to say or do. i jus have to keep moving on in life.

dunno why. evy monday has to be some emo-momo day. went to many blogs and saw many many emo posts. or nostalgic ones, you may say.

huiying,yizhuang,weiming,junhao. all the 4e5ians. i laughed at those very funny things we did and all those ever so 经典 things that happened in the class. and 很不小心的, my tears fell. :'(

huiying:
i m getting nostalgic these days.went back to swiss ytd with dear yz.gosh,how much i miss her.i miss jiji.i miss swiss so much.i miss 4e5 so much, even though we are not e most bonded class ever. had a tour arnd e sch after we collect our cert. hais. all e fond memories. i miss swisspai gu mian our signature dish. i 'saw' xh playing e piano in e canteen. i miss cutting queues since we r sec4s we r seniors. i miss smuggling food back to class. i miss the route from canteen to 4e5. so we walked back to class, this time round 4e5'08 was inside, doing emath mock paper. mr ngoh still at his seat, but he seems skinnier. i miss doing mock papers. so much that we request mr ngoh to let us do the papers behind e class. behind e class... i miss watching e guys play soccer. i miss being hit by e ball. i miss 'FORM TEAMMMMM!' to the max. i miss e smell mixture of their deodorants though its super stinky. i miss seeing the guys crazy over ayumi-esp junhao. lol i miss the uncle. i miss sitting beside baba. i miss singing together with her, talking nonsense, slping tgt(lol!) i miss laoda n pong asking us to shutup from behind. i miss e feeling of lying on baba's shoulder.i miss 'yuan dian' i miss e feeling of turning arnd n i c laoda n pong recording 'xiao hua da quan'. i miss haikal e joke. i miss jk who cant pronounce fish. i miss benghow n junyang always bringing laughter to 4e5. i miss seeing zhihong umm chio. i miss mummy/mingming doing work conscientiously. i miss copying hw from penny the goddess. 'PENNY PON WE ALL PON LA!' i miss huiyi always copying hw from penny too. i miss jiamin the crazy talkative girl. i miss dip bt not as much since shes in sa. haha. i miss my neighbours in front of me our dear monitress zhengan n junyoong. i miss vincent's laughter, the mouse. n of cux e chiku always trying to ans teacher's qn. i miss laoren. i miss 3-day work week turbo. i miss seeing my brother joseph ng's head on e table. with peanut disturbing him. i miss yz n weixian the pope. yz, i noe 'NI XI HUAN WEI XIAN' haha. selective hearing :D of cux. when all their heads r down mr ravi can only see amira. beside mingyao with his irritating voice. i miss kiao. i miss edward the mama shop. edwardian jokes. his holy laughter. i miss sokheng e god. joel e monkey? i miss mr ravi's way of calling 'yongqing'- best phy rep. i miss e super slack but freaking smart uncle. elizabeth? i c her in sa everyday. i miss kahwai who got scandal with 'ahem' yongxiang fellow sha shou! xuanhan n junda too! the vice head prefect always having gastrics lol. i miss xuanhan to bits though we had a horrible quarrel before. erm guohui who once like me=.-lll n finally zixianzixian e cheeeeese:D 4E5 i miss every single one of u. cya on speech day :D teachers of cux, jingjing we miss u! lets act out our show 'jin zhi yu nue' one day. with my bf jia la fei~ mr ngoh pls eat more n zao xia less. mdm tang pls scold less smile more. mrs yu pls be more strict. ms ee n ms tan take care. mr ravi i miss ur strong cologne. mrs koh i miss bio lesson. i miss every single thing in swiss to bits. i'll be back, see you my dear friends on speech day (: lovelovelove!

yizhuang:
Went back to Swiss with my dearest HUIYING! Awwwwww! How much I miss that girl. Received our testi from the GO, and Mdm Sathiya(Sp?) who happens to be there commented that me and Ying look like sisters. Hehehs, the n'th person to say that to us! =DRoamed around the school, and every single spot can bring to us a whole chunk of memories. Booo, how much I miss Swiss. It seems that people would only start to cherish when they've lost it. Sighs..Went back to our old classroom, and everything seems the same, yet the feeling is so different. It is no longer 4e5'07 sitting inside, but 4e5'08. We can only look back as alumni-s. = Mr Ngoh is inside as well, conducting Math mock paper, and it saddens me to see how skinny he is right now. The past Mr Ngoh, not-so-light, always cracking the lamest jokes, talking loudly and ending up zaoxia-ing, taking his multi-purpose stick with him, calling Turbo LimMeiMei, pushing all faults in papers to his son, purposely giving us more hw just to see us groan in despair, then pretend to be nice and having a buddha heart. Just Mr Ngoh alone is able to bring back all these memories.Went to the canteen, and I was talking to this girl whom I suppose is Ying's junior. Weirdly enough, we're able to talk non-stop even when I dunno her at all. Oh yar, it just occurred to me that till now, I still dunno wad is her name. Oh wells. Our topic revolves mostly around school life, whether it's possible to attain low L1R5 despite a 29-pointer now, and whether Poly or JC would be a better choice. Everything depends. JC life is indeed exhaustive, but I'm rather sure that Poly wouldn't be the right choice for me. Hehehs..More roaming around after that, trying to look for Mdm Tang. Meanwhile, we went over to the Dungeon, and it's another gush of memories. How we're the only class hosting China friends, how Jos and Ben.H tired to jump over a whole row of chairs, how we camwhored everyday, how we made so many new friends, how this Germany guy came over and we paired him up with Penny, how my standard MSN nick came about due to the pullover I had... memories.Found Mdm Tang, and we did even more talking. About our present lives, about the miracle she did in collaboration with Mrs Lui to attain a MSG of 1.5 for combined humans. She's telling us that having a life of a teacher is never easy, but somehow I still feel that I wouldn't mind being one, but not secondary one though. Ages 1 and below would be the best. Aha! I'll swoon over them everyday and go gaga everyday. Hehehs..

weiming:
Went back to Swiss to collect SGC with weihao, zhihong and kahwai today. Sze wee came to meet us at the gate before we entered. Papaya aunties in the general office were having good moods today cause they handed me my SGC even though I din't bring my letter. Reminds me of the malay auntie who used to walk around the school with a cold face because she din't get to eat her papaya. We sat in the canteen after that to laugh at people (what swiss do best) in the 2007 year book which came along with the SGC. Somehow, looking back at secondary school life made everybody so emo amidst the laughter and teasing.Anyways, we were chased out of the school by the security guard because weihao was attracting too much attention from the girls (just joking, the guard just wanted us to get out so that he can have an early day).

junhao:
look no further, there is no patrick lim is this post, he is totally a worthless topic if i compared him to swiss journey in the later part of this post. the only interesting thing today in ajc is bryan tio gang-ed for his birthday and we took him and open his legs and ram the flag pole beside the canteen hahah XDXDok ... back to swissalighting from the MRT, i walk down the escalator and brought me to the familiar sights of bukit gombak mrt station...haizzz.... emotional, so seriously sad, as i was walking back to swiss, from the bukit gombak mrt station to it, suddenly everything flashback-ed to me. every area i saw as i walked sort of like reminds me of the most memorable events that took place there.sitting at the gombak mrt to drink sweettalk with my 2 fellow swiss npcc brothers after every sec 2 training ...the 2 coffee shops where we have our lunches and dinner, it nv seem appealing at that time, now i reall miss it....the 7 eleven store where we always patronise during sec 2....and of course the very slow traffic lights, yet ironically i just hope that the green man willn't light up while i was waiting there today, was admiring my old sch ....entering the sch, i met the security guard, and pass by the carpark area where the national day parade for swiss is being rehearsed today. hearing the "BARIS ..." command, reminds me of the npcc days, during sec 2 when i screwed up my 1st drill test.the npcc contingent saw me, and i saw them too, of course they recognised me, they look pretty shocked too why i came back. but since they are in parade rehearsal, i just gave them a wicked salute.after collecting my SGC, i walked into the sch further...then as i walked in, i walked past the route from the canteen to my classroom's nearest staircase, reminds me the countless times me and joseph and gang smuggle "pauS" + soya bean milk can drink up to class, so that we can play classroom soccer for lunchbreaks. and also somehow i "saw" mdm zainab catching joseph and me with our pauS.next, i went to the CCA block, i hear the same old nostalgic chinese orchestra instrumens practise "music", if i were to be writing this last time, i will say it is NOISES cus it really affected my mood for npcc at 1st floor, (CO is 2nd floor). after all, my tuesday and friday afternoons were spent there...then i saw zhicao, and asked him how has he been doing... not bad. he is now a cadet inspector.then i left, reading the year book as i walk, nice memories.on the ride home, i was tinking about why 1/2 a year passed so fast? Jc life is way too cruel, it deprives u the time to even think abt where u came from just 6 months ago, and yet when we are suddenly reminded of our dearest secondary school, all the fond memories will nearly bring me to tears.swiss foreva ...

if there is anything more i could say, i guess it would be i really really really really really missed swiss. and i really really really really really really really missed jiji.

saw huiying online just now and wo zhen de shi feng diao. i teared! damn. i teared!
i guess i really missed her too much. plus am quite worried about her these days. guess she's facing alot of stress and everything. so xin teng her. :(
why. why is jc life robbing her of her happiness?
talked with her abit and seriously missed her from the very very very bottom of my heart. for once, i wanted so much to see her. i wanted so much to give this dear a real big hug(like those in teletubbies), and tell her, how much she's making me worried+sad, how much i cared for her and how much i missed her.

there's just still so much to say but so little time.
what's with pw? what's with the homework? what's with the assignments? what's with the new topics? what's with promos? what's with jcs?

when the world says give up, hope whispers try it one more time.

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Thursday, July 24, 2008/9:41 AM

sc investiture today.

congrats YIZHUANG. congrats all the swiss peeps who are officially the 9th councils. =D

eco club as ursherers today. sian. damn waste time sial. me, ali, jk just crapped the whole afternoon from 1.30pm to 5pm. holy mama. nothing for us to lah.

but one thing good about the whole thing is just our tcs. haha.

formed a gang.
SISTERHOOT. muahahaha. ppl like cx n hy got sisterhood mah. we don't copy. we go for sisterhoot! even came up with new names.
CHUA WAN KAI
GOH JING SIN
LIM TING TING

just a combi of our names lah. haha. i know its crappy. but we are seriously bored mah! its really full blow talk cock session can. nobody disturbed us for that whole few hours. and so we went on and on and on and on.

heehee.jk just made this logo. :)

anw,heard frm jk that their swiss brothers meet up almost evyweek! m so envious! :(

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Wednesday, July 23, 2008/11:52 AM

as usual, tuesdays are tiring days. :(

but today is special for me. :)
went off for a pw interview after lessons.

he was ms liew's friend. a father who had lost her daughter when she was 13 years old. i don't know why. but the moment i set my eyes on him, i felt a surge of respect for this particular father. maybe he has that style. that gentlemanly style. the look of a loving father. the look of a patience teacher. :)))

anyway. was rather touched throughout the interview. he shared willingly his feelings and everything. am really so grateful.

"she taught me how to be strong in face of adversity" ,thats what he said about her daughter.

i don't know how to describe the whole process of the interview.
i don't know how to describe my feelings throughout the interview.
i don't know how to describe what i have learnt after the interview.

but i liked the interview. i liked how the interview went. i liked how the father shared his feelings.

anyway. last sun was exactly 3months since gonggong passed away. still teared here and there. but maybe the pain is lesser now. this thurs night would be off to msia for the 100th day. how time flies. its 3 months already.
公，你还好吗？

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Tuesday, July 22, 2008/2:43 PM

im so sick. =(

anw. its racial harmony day today! dunno why. it just brought back a lot of memories.
去年的今天, i remembered entering a class full of colors. i remembered it was the first time i took the most no. of photos on one particular day throughout my whole 16 years.
i remembered...
i remembered.....
i remembered........

hmm. no monday blues today! the day started well with me,ali n yx reminiscing the past and laughing big time at those stuffs we did in the past.

argh. i missed you, fren!

i am spending a bit more time in memory land than i usually do.

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Friday, July 18, 2008/4:15 PM

i guess my house's air arent fresh. coughing like mad the moment i reached home. argh!

anw, went to asha's house to borrow traditional costumes. this year gonna wear punjabi suit again. cos our class nidda set up a booth showcasing indian dance. =/
of course, im not dancing. just wearing the costumes to support the class, perhaps.
hmm. it was fun lah. crapping with jingjie,jingling n asha. seriously thank god for these bunch of fun ppl in 08s14. if not PJ would be so sian. seriously.

anyway. took a picture before we left. the set of costume im wearing now wun be the one i would b wearing that day. cos it's too expensive. cost $200 over. don't dare to wear. too glam.

right. thats all. TGIF!

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/7:11 AM

yongbin's not blogging anymore!

dunno why. a sudden tinge of sadness crept up to me. i know you might think it's a lil exaggerating on my part. but seriously. dunno why but really felt sad. i don't know. it felt like losing a friend.

literally losing a friend. =(

since we all left swiss half a year back, most of us keep in contact with each other through blogs. looking at these blogs made me feel relieved. at least there's still something that's holding us together, perhaps.
im glad to know about their new life. their new friends. and everything.

doesn't matter when they take a long time to update an entry. (ppl like yuping)
at least there's still that feeling of anticipation whenever i click on that link in my 'favourites folder'.

i get so used to visiting cx, ybjyky, hy, yp, ali, yz, jy, yl, jiji 's blogs everytime i sit infront of the computer. one by one, without fail, lining up in my 'favourites' list. then now there is this cheryl adding on to the list, which made me so happy!
this makes me feels that im just like those young kids, with their collection of digimon cards, admiring them everyday, and jumping in delight whenever there is an addition to their collection.

sigh. now i have one card less.
or maybe. it seems to be one friend less. =(

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Thursday, July 17, 2008/12:09 PM

celebrated the july babies' birthday today. =D

the 2kg cake from bengawan solo.

the birthday boy & girl.

08S14

birthday card done by huiteng.

by me.

by jingjie.

sch ended early today. 1.30pm! but was held back by that irritating pw. sigh. 5.30pm then reached home. =(((

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Wednesday, July 16, 2008/8:36 AM

im just so god damn tired.

well. i guess everyone's having monday blues ytd. at least me n cx were.
sigh. school totally sucked big time these 2 days.
super-uber emo shit!

CIXIAN: I HATE JC LIFE TOO. SERIOUSLY HATE BIG TIME.
like you know, there's nothing that i like in jc.
i guess jc life gonna be a piece of empty memory.

i hate PW. hate the whatever shit we have to do for PW. the whatever work we have to hand in. the whatever efforts we have to put in.

i hate phyisics. i hate all the whatever concepts we have to learn. i hate all the whatever shit formular we have to memorise. i hate all the whatever the lecturer/tutor have to say. i hate the bloody phy papers we have to take at the end of the year.

i hate eco club's tcher incharge. i hate the whatever instructions she has for me. i hate the whatever expectations she has for me. i hate the whatever shit she pushes to me to do when i have already reject her stupid offer of being her vice-chair.

the only good thing. i dont hate my classmates. i like the whatever nonsence we had even when the day was extremely tiring. i like the big and uncontrollable laughing at whatever thing that amuse us.

but. im tired.
hate mondays n tuesdays. bad time table. bad days.
cx, lemme join u in the washing machine.

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Monday, July 14, 2008/7:55 AM

suddenly realised. human beings can be really scary sometimes.
you just couldn't understand what/how they are thinking.

humans have split personality, i realised. 2 completely different person infront of you and behind you. this really sends a chill down my spine.
nothing of such sorts happened to me yet(i hope) but 这几天really 看到很多this kind of things. seriously disgusted.

right.human beings are really complicated creatures. ppl arent just as simple as you thought/wished.
cldnt help but question. is this a part of growing up?

i seriously felt so intimidated. i didnt realise they could really distort the truth that much. and say so many bad things about that person. yet being so close to him/her. just like friends. who could talk, who could share about their life and everything.
so do we call that betrayal?

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Saturday, July 12, 2008/3:15 PM

haha. i think that video really not bad sia!
越看越 touched. heh heh. not i 老蔡卖瓜 lor. the one i made for jiji also very good.

impressive.

anw. bbco performance in the morning then went back to the cc and saw a blood donation drive!
hao leh. so i went for it.

cool. hmm. first was the finding of veins then the apply of antiseptic then was the injection of 麻醉药 and then was the poking into the vein. whole process only 10mins or so. ji gou li de lor.
actually quite nervous. 人家第一次吗. so abit nervous. haha. somemore yi ge ren leh! but okay la. evything take place very fast. and the flow of my blood also damn fast.

glurp glurp glurp.. tada! one full packet of fresh bloood! wah seh. ji da bao lor. 450ml full! really damn full. i scared it will burst sia.

anyway, i was the last to donate. damn paisei. while i still donating, they alr pack 得差不多了.then got another grp setting up for a malay wedding....
ppl 在摆喜酒 i lie in the middle donating blood.
wa piang.

but all in all, i thot it was a fun experience. finally got to donate my blood! so happy! =DDDDDDD

yeah. so after that went to westmall to watch swiss co's performance. saw jy n ky. they BB-ed in the morning then went to westmall htht. haha.

after which ms lim asked me to follow her back to swiss to pass me something. so i went back with co. then after that went to lot one and dined together.
as usual, treated by her again! wah sehh. i damn paisei sial. evytime go bk treated by her...
sigh. anyway, we htht alot. nice long chat lah. we literally talked until the shop closed. =DDDDDD
evytime meet up with ms lim, she never fails to update me on who is going to leave and who has left. sigh. swiss is really losing all the good teachers. =(

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/10:30 AM

made a video. enjoy! =DDDDD

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/9:57 AM

TGIF!!!

yayness. weekend's here again. perhaps last week's too slack alr. so this week was struggling hard to get back to serious studying. =/

anyway. got back my results. rather okay? =D

this week was just a week busy with PW. evyday is pw pw pw pw.
eom draft2 and WR chap1,2,3 dued one after together.damn shag!

right. alot of swiss ppl came to pioneer today. all the sports leaders. and saw some teachers also.mr shashi, mr michael. mrs low was here too.(in case ure trying hard to recall who is mrs low, well. she's the vice-principle of swiss) =D
i don't know why though.

right. that's all for today! it's friday! =DDDDDDD

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Friday, July 11, 2008/8:52 AM

went back swiss with ali, yuping n turbo to pick up the o lvl cert n testimonial!

well done. it's really really nicely done sia. the testimonial write until you like god.i don't even know i was that good can.
seriously. i swear lah. don't believe go see all the 4e5 ppl one. all ms ee write until machiam we are god.

i know ure not convinced. take a look at this:

Unquestionably, sin ting was an all-rounder as she made full use of her 4 years to fruitfully develop her character, leadership and academic abilities. she would be fondly remembered by her teachers and peers as a humble and approachable person.

that was the last paragraph. wo ji gan dong yi xia!
ms ee ji gou li wor!

anyway, saw my photos which would be up at the banner. 我的妈呀! 是丑的lor! i feel like crying when i saw the photos sia. shit!!!!!
wa piang! gonna be up there for a year leh! damn sad. the photos really ji nan kan yi xia. should have insisted to take a look at them when i took em the last time.
how? how? how?
i guess i will have to 一把火把 banner 烧掉 when its up!

p.s. i looked like a pervert in the photo! GG alr!

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Wednesday, July 9, 2008/9:53 AM

Okayyy, here goes the quiz tagged by yizhuang..

1. The person who last tag you is:
yizhuang

2. Your relationship with him/her is:
she is my youngest sis in jiji. fellow pioneers.

3. Your five impression of him/her:
- cute
- happy-go-lucky
- damn li hai.(she got fantastic grades for her midyear. damn!)
- always late. or should i say, never early?
- not truthful to baba n me abt her scandals. tsk tsk. soon it's gonna be jiji & yizhuang & huiying & turbo.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
laugh damn loudly at my jokes sometimes. which makes me damn damn happy. haha

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:
jiji mei you mimi hor!(forcing me to say...)

6.If he/she become your lover, you will :
Hahaha, impossible. i like guys. 100% normal.

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:
stop being late. i hate ppl being late!

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will:
not talk to her? why the hell would we be enemy?

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:
she likes to be late. duh.

10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is:
find her a boyfriend? haha. i dun really quite get what the qns is asking.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:
A great+cute friend to have. =D

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?:
smart? hahaha. which is like. so not true.

13. The characters you love of yourself are:
mature? (i hope i am)

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:
bad tempered! =/

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
just a happy person.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
you've made my life worth living. i thank you with all my heart. =DDD

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you:
1) cixian.
2) yongbin.
3) junyang.
4) kaiyao.
5) qiaohui.
6) jieying.
7) xxx
8) xxx
9) xxx
10)xxx
oh well. i have limited no. of ppl visiting my blog! i cldnt think of more alr.haha

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
jieying! lol. warren. the stupid scandal we started.

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
err. im not too sure abt that. lol.

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
hahaha. difficult to ans this qns

22. What is no.2 studying about?
yongbin! ~~gsc~~ history, maths, chem, econs

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
junyang! just texted him not long ago. considered chat? =D

24. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
i dont know

25. Does no.1 have any siblings?
cixian! 2 younger brother

26. Will you woo no.3?
junyang! ermm. bu hao ba. =/

27. How about no.7?
haha. how to?

28. Is no.4 single?
kaiyao! haha. i suppose?

29. What is the surname of no.5?
qiaohui! yeong

30. What 's the hobby of no.4?
kaiyao!huh. tho we are fellow ah chuas, i dunno leh. bb-ing?

31. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?
qiaohui n xxx. haha. no comments

32. Where is no.2 studying at?
yongbin! saints

33. Talk something casually about no.1:
cixian. she likes to nag alot. and she dies easily. muahaha.

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
no comments

35. Where does no.9 live at?
no comments

36. What colour does no.4 like?
kaiyao!i seriously dunno.

37. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
qiaohui and cixian! i doubt so. junior-senior relationship ba

38. Does no.7 like no.2?
xxx and yongbin! err. i doubt so. =/

39. How do you get to know no.2?
yongbin! secondary sch friends.

40. Does no.1 have any pets?
cixian! nah.

41. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
lol. no comments

42. What is no. 10 doing now?
no comments.

wah biang. what a looooooooonnnngggg quiz. shag!
okay, ppl. i dun mean to tag you to do it. but. haha. jus do it if you have nothing better to do. =DDDDD

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Tuesday, July 8, 2008/8:34 AM

been slacking like shit these few days.

no school. no homework. nothing.
but this resulted in plenty of time for 胡思乱想.

been too many ppl wanting to know about me and jy. willingly shared. but couldn't help but triggerred painful feelings.
maybe was a lil too honest with them?
maybe was trying a lil too hard to conceal my very very real feelings deep down?
contradicting.

i tell myself.
i don't regret being with him then.
i don't regret putting a fullstop to our relationship now.
yet i couldn't help but question myself. have i done the slightest right thing at all?
contradicting.

i thought this was the best ending.
but why do i feel sad?
why do he feel sad too?
contradicting.

心该怎么学会去适应那些没你的安静
我也曾伤心的收起所有回忆却总是忍不住不断放弃

maybe school's reopening is a good thing for now. at least when studies get into full swing again, there are less time for endless;meaningless thinking and less time for tears. and maybe then, things would turn out fine, eventually.

time heals?

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Sunday, July 6, 2008/2:05 PM

off for cip with eco club at pasir ris on sat morning.
for all my life, i didn't know theres a place in pasir ris that is THAT dirty. basically the rubbish is endless. there is no end to the pickings. i swear. dirty like shit.
anyway, after one and half hour of agony, we were dismissed.

it was early. 11am.
i didn't know what to do then. except to walk with the guys to the mrt staion.
brunch with jk n joseph at whitesands.

it was 12.15pm.
took the train with jk, wenxian and company.(ali pangseh me!)
called yuping and decided to pay her a visit at Art Friend since i didn't know what to do and i don't want to go home- to face the walls, the tv and the comp.

reached bugis at ard 1pm. it was raining heavily. couldnt make my way to Art Friend. roamed around bugis junction. stayed for almost an hour in kinokuniya. browsing books- i really don't know what to do.

the rain stopped. made my way to Art Friend. stopped by at the national library. it was 2.00pm. i don't know what to do. i went in to try my luck on the books i saw in kino. but they were all on loan. left nlb after half an hour.

reached the place. saw fujifilm and made my way in to ask for the price for developing photos. i don't know what to do next so i thought maybe i would just make do with the quite-good-price for developing photos-25cents each.(provided i have 60 over photos to develop). i have this habit to develope the photos taken, though they could just stay in the computer as long as it doesnt crash one day. well, i have nothing else better to do anyway. so i chose the pictures and was asked to come back at 4pm to collect.spent half an hour in the shop.

proceed to level 3 or 2 (i forgot). there you go. Art Friend. it was rather packed with people. made my way to yp at the cashier. she didn't see me. walked pass her and approach the counter from the back, whispering to her to wrap everything in the shop for me. haha. ok. i have nothing better to do to crack such a stupid joke. she got a shock when she saw me. it was 2.45pm only. i don't know what to do. so i roamed around Art Friend. amazed by the variety of things it sells. as well as the PRICE. well done. it is really ex like dunno what shit. what's more amazing is that there are really lots of lunatics buying things there.(yuping is too busy at the cashier to entertain me) i don't know what to do so i started roaming around. walking through the shelves, looking at the variety and of course the price. and of course of course, i went to look for kenneth, yp's stupid scandal which i came up with. haha. im such a dumbo.

i don't know what to do except to continue floating around. finally decided to go somewhere else. so i went up to the pop above Art Friend. it is really big with lots and lots of stuff. i suppose i would go back there to use my pop voucher when i receive them during speech day. looked around and started shopping for the materials for turbo's birthday card. found some and went down to Art Friend to ask for pop card from yp. you see. i really have nth better to do. took the card and went up again to buy the things. while lining up, saw my co juniors. thats it. must be pak tor-ing. if now how come only the 2 of them? i didn't call out to them. instead, hid myself from them. you know, to prevent any awkward situation. though i have nothing better to do and should have stoped them in their tracks and chatted with them or you know, teased them.

anw. it was 3.30pm. i went back to Art Friend agn. this time round, she is more free to entertain me. though there were many times when a customer would come and interrupt our conversation. i don't know what to do after buying the stuffs for turbo's card. just leaned on the counter having tcs with yuping. (tcs= talk cock session) soon it was 4pm and i decided to go home. i guess i have planned the day well enough to be home b4 5.30pm for the 第19届台湾金曲奖.

so at 4pm, i bid farewell to yp and went down to pick up my photographs.then i walked to bugis mrt station and went home.

basically i don't know what to do for the whole day. i really don't know what to do. so i wasted the whole day, floating aimlessly alone?

oh well. no choice.

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Saturday, July 5, 2008/2:58 AM

无论好与不好，有感觉与没感觉，都会过去的。
就算多么卸不下放不开的事情，过眼便成云烟。了无痕。
也许应该，只是向前看。

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Friday, July 4, 2008/4:06 AM

saw jy's post.

well done. i just sit infront of the computer screen and start crying.
and closed the window before finishing everything.
i couldnt bring myself to continue reading.

or maybe there wasn't even a need to finish reading it. cos it just meant more crying.
i am so sorry.
i felt so sorry.

can you tell me what have i done?
no. you don't have to. cos i know very well. i just hurt such an important person in my life.

if that's what i wanted to do, good job. i did it.
i just took a knife, and stabbed him and myself right in the place where it hurts most.
i never knew i was that spot on.

stop putting up a brave front. stop.
i am as weak as who i am.

对不起，真的。
我以后再也不谈恋爱了。我再也不要。

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Wednesday, July 2, 2008/2:46 PM

dinner with yilin!

shall let the pictures do the talking:

yeah. i guess that's about it.
the next time yilin's coming back would be on december. :(

take care lots.
till we meet again. :)

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Tuesday, July 1, 2008/2:56 PM

me and junyang are friends now.
it was a decision made by the both of us.

挥别错的才能和对的相逢离开旧爱像坐慢车看透彻了心就会是晴朗的
没人能把谁的幸福没收你发誓你会活的有笑容。

祝你快乐，对不起。

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/2:52 PM

as promised, im updating my blog!

right. so it's finally the end of the common test.
half a year since we had any exams!

okay la. i thought it was rather tough.

fine. wadever! it's the end of exams!!!!!
i don't care. im so gonna enjoy myself for the time being.

this week so damn shiok. tues, weds no papers. thurs pw workshop till 12pm. fri marking day aka no sch agn! woohoo~

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