been slacking like shit these few days.

no school. no homework. nothing.
but this resulted in plenty of time for 胡思乱想.

been too many ppl wanting to know about me and jy. willingly shared. but couldn't help but triggerred painful feelings.
maybe was a lil too honest with them?
maybe was trying a lil too hard to conceal my very very real feelings deep down?
contradicting.

i tell myself.
i don't regret being with him then.
i don't regret putting a fullstop to our relationship now.
yet i couldn't help but question myself. have i done the slightest right thing at all?
contradicting.

i thought this was the best ending.
but why do i feel sad?
why do he feel sad too?
contradicting.

心 该怎么学会去适应 那些没你的安静
我 也曾伤心的收起所有回忆 却总是忍不住不断放弃

maybe school's reopening is a good thing for now. at least when studies get into full swing again, there are less time for endless;meaningless thinking and less time for tears. and maybe then, things would turn out fine, eventually.

time heals?