welcome;

Sunday, August 31, 2008/3:56 PM

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/8:21 AM

i have a cute cousin. seriously. and you know, i guess i really thank god for her, and for all my family members. :)

ytd went to an uncle's mother funeral. mum, sis n i hitched a ride from my cousin's dad car. apparently, after we alighted, she blurted out to her mum, saying that she's worried if i might feel very sad to attend a funeral. whether i would start thinking about gong gong.

okay. initially i thought i would be very sad too. you know, 触境伤情！but it turned fine actually. i didnt think much about it as i indulged in the game of monopoly with mum and sis until we finally went off 2 hours later.

i didnt know she visited my blog. ( i thought it was so damn ulu) but you know. she might have googled it. haha! smart girl. anyways, yeah. so she read my blog these days and felt that im not that happy. that explains the worry.

so aunt called mum this morning and blurted it out to mum that you know, im bla bla bla. so mum called me and damn. she asked whats wrong with me.

anyway. yeah. that's the whole thing. i smsed my cousin later, feeling abit angry(in fact very angry, i must admit) and demanded an explanation(sounded exaggerating). after some interogation, she admitted(to commiting the crime) haha. just some minutes ago, aunt called and explained the whole matter to me and that everything's just everyone's 不小心 and 出于关心. which is true lah. and she said my cousin is crying like stupid shit! scolding her why she 大嘴巴. haha. i guess she understands that i might feel angry bah.

anyway, i dont blame her anymore. she is really just worreid and showing her care. why should i blame her for that? and i thought she is really cute eh? hahahaha.

it might have been just an episiode that unknowingly spiced up the otherwise boring saturday.
but to me, i guess it meant a lot. thanks, dawn. thanks for caring. you were right. i wasn't having a great time these days. but it wasn't because of gonggong.

no matter what, don't take it to heart. i don't blame you! :)

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Saturday, August 30, 2008/10:14 AM

why. why must things turn out like this.

who am i, to you?

i swear, you were more important. than anyone else.

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/9:34 AM

cixian just shared with me a blog.
i read a few entries and i know i can't bear to continue reading.

life is fragile.

do you know, how to treasure?

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/7:17 AM

i like the little little meet-ups with miss lim. cos everytime after the meeting, i am a happy girl. she remineded me. no matter what i am facing right now, there is someone who cares.

thank you, miss lim.
happy teachers' day. :D

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Friday, August 29, 2008/10:58 AM

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Wednesday, August 27, 2008/5:16 AM

what may be important to you may not be important to others.
what is important to others may never be important to you.
never try to impose your thoughts on others. never. for you will create an endless pit for yourself to deep into, where you never feel happy and appreciated.
you know, don't be someone who has to hold back anything and everything.

i will change, i swear.
i will be strong, no matter what.

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Sunday, August 24, 2008/4:40 PM

it's the last performance by BBCO. the very last one.
for i know, i have spent 2 and a half years in the orchestra. as i looked back, i realised, this 2 years are indeed fun,fulfiling and memorable: two trips to malaysia & one trip to hongkong, and the many many performances in the CC, at the westmall and at all kinds of functions.

i loved co. maybe.
5 and a half years of COs for me. yet i still enjoy the feeling of standing on the stage, performing my very best infront of the audience and receive the ever overwhelming applause. i loved the way i can play my instrument. i loved the way mr lee conducted the whole orchestra. i loved the way he joked. i loved the way he taught. i loved everything about lee papa.
but now. it seems like the very old-fashioned way of saying, 天下无不散之宴席.

i know. i would never understand why mr lee decides to quit bbco. but i know, he too, couldnt bear to end bbco in this way.

there is nothing i could do, i guess, but to move on.

it was a great concert, indeed. it felt fantastic, to be able to mingle with these people, whom most we met before during the HK trip 2 years ago. the hongkong musicians were still as great. they still play nice music, they are still warm and friendly, they are still all professionals!
nothing changed. except the fact that when they asked when would it be the next time we would go over to HK, none of us could answer. we just hoped, that there would ever have such a chance again, deep down in our heart.

yes. i hate changes. i do hate all the very irritating changes in life. but things just couldnt always be the same. change is really the only constant.

this was the flower my juniors gave to me before the end of the concert.
i looked at it. for once, i wished the flower would never ever reach my hand.

goodbye, bbco.

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Saturday, August 23, 2008/3:09 PM

yongbin called me.
he was with cixian, cheryl and xiaohan(i didnt hear her voice though)

they were quarrelling over some money issues which seriously made me laugh my head off.

i heard their laughter. i felt their happiness. so real. so strong.
i started asking myself. when? when would it ever be my chance? when would i ever revive that laughter of mine?

there are just too much of uncertainties running through my mind.

for i know, friendships are fragile.

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Thursday, August 21, 2008/10:32 AM

muahahahahahaha.

was chatting with yongbin jus now. asking each other about hows life now and hows evyone coping with studies and things lidat.

hahaha. see this:

he wouldnt expect me to have done that bah! heh hehs. all thanks to baba, who taught me how to "print screen" and capture the very very important moment in life. muahahahahahaha.

yongbin, there's no road of return for you. u owe me one blank cheque. all of you here would be my judge k! :DDDDDDDDDD

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Tuesday, August 19, 2008/12:00 PM

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

finally updgraded my starhub cable! :D
and now i have all the olympics channel! tai solid le! heehees.

anw.phy test today. :(

china's liuxiang is out of the olympics. :(

im very very very very, ultra busy this week. :(

just saw cx's entry. :(
hmmm.this msg frm sihui never fails to keep me going:
Every experience in life is another stepping stone towards growing up. while we continue growing, we learn to live for the best memories along the way. things would turn out fine. take care fren! :)

so i wanna tell cx,and all of my frens out there, things would turn out fine!

nobody wants you. nobody makes you happy. nobody likes you. nobody misses you. nobody wants good things for you. nobody cares for you.
don't cry. my name is nobody. :D

cheer up, fren! i know you're trying very hard. but when you're at the end of the rope, tie a knot and hang in there!

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Sunday, August 17, 2008/7:35 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TURBO!!!!!!!!!!

right. congrats on Team Singapore! heh heh.

it was a nice match betwn korea n spore ytd. watched the live telecast in the college's canteen with a whole lot of people. the atmosphere was solid. lots of cheers for Team Spore n some occasional jeers for Team korea. lol.

the feeling was fantastic and great. as we won the last match, the whole canteen roared with cheers and laughters. how nice, yeah? :) it felt so much better than shouting infront of the tv alone!(while leads to scoldings from my mum)
i like that. seriously.

hmmm. yeah. so its the weekend, fortunately. had a busy week and finally its time for a rest. phew! long time since i get to sit down comfortably and read through my newspapers without rushing through. so i spent a whole two and a half hour reading my straitstimes n zaobao, before being interrpted by Michael Phelps's 100m butterfly finals. hahas. as usual, he won.the 7th gold in hand!he is a sot guy.seriously. =/

guess everyone had been very busy. too busy for a breather.

just hope to give a pat on your shoulders and encourage you to move on, my frens!

random fact #1: just went to cx's blog and discover something. beside to yilin's and cheryl's link, there is only one love. and beside zhengning's theres so so many loves! woah. cx, that's it. :D

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Wednesday, August 13, 2008/8:40 AM

been into olympics games these few days.

god. the olympic games are just so. or should i say, totally addictive! couldn't take myself off the tv set the moment i sat on the sofa, switching the channels every few minutes.(im still struggling to type this entry without thinking about turning on the tv and watching out for games again).

and yeah. spent the weekends chasing after the games.
the holy match of Team China VS Team USA. impressive indeed. yaoming is so freaking solid with that first 3pointer he shot. it was like. WOAH.

and of course, the many many games played. gymmnastic, swimming, volleyball, beach volleyball, badminton, hockey, handball, soccer. you name it, i watched it. ahaha. not that exaggerating lah.

never been into olympic games like this time round before. maybe i was too young then to notice such a super-uber grand event taking place every four years. anyway, was very impressed with the opening ceremony at the Birdnest. (right. i shall stop now, if not im going to sound like some commentor praising the beijing olympics opening ceremony to the skies.)

right. so as requested by baba, im updating the blog now.

sigh. am not trying to scare you guys or anything. realised promos is going to be here in about one month's time. scary indeed.
i feel threatened. seriously.

yeah. so, guess i have updated enough and i suppose i wun be updating for the next few days. many tests coming up and shall not take any more chances now.

goodluck to all of you guys and jiayou many many many! let SWISS OWN THE PROMOS! CHEERS! =DDDDDD

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Friday, August 8, 2008/3:19 PM

national day celebration in pj today. right. nothing much. the usual stuffs like singing all those.
came across some random pics in the college portal.

the whole college in red.

sing along session in the hall.

hah. randomly came across this picture of ah chua and i shall randomly put it up also then.
ah chua looked damn fierce sia. =X

right.thats all about national day eve. finally went to doctors after being sick for 3 weeks. phew.
sigh. missed the olympics opening ceremony! =((((((((

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Thursday, August 7, 2008/3:01 PM

speechday at swiss! =D

right. impressive huh. see how i can maintain that very same old identical smile for every photo. heehee. not everyone can do that okay.

jiji at hall. i think the background is damn nice. =DDDDDDD

4e5 guys. see that AJ gang?

the pamphlet. with my very stupid face up there.

ok. i like this. haha. =)

anyways. sang the school anthem at the end of the ceremony.
swiss cottage swiss cottage, blaze a path of glory! =D
for once, i sang the school song so loud, with so much pride.
swiss is love!!!!!!!!!

right. so after that mini 4e5 outing at westmall, mac. crapped abit and went off. had fun though. =))))))))))))

and yeah. that's all about speechday. didn't had the chance to take pics with junyang(he rushed off for his bb meeting lah) ,sokheng,weixian,mingming,uncle chiong, kahwai...... and yizhuang!hah. didnt realise i missed out yizhuang sia. nvm that. got chance one. =)

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Tuesday, August 5, 2008/2:04 PM

a friend is leaving jc for the polytechnic in our class. was rather shocked by the news cos i didn't expect that to happen.

weren't that close with the girl, by the name, sok eng.
she has been a quiet girl, who doesnt talk much to me. seems like those hi-bye frends in the class. maybe some occasional talk-cock-session with her. some little little giggles here and there.

pathetic me. 6 months into the class and i realised i do have quite a few hi-bye friends. :(

her departure sets me thinking. how did she ever made such an decision? how did she ever summon that whole lot of courage to give up everything about jc at this point in time? i wondered.
and i realised, i admired her courage. i asked myself, how many of us can actually be like her? to admit that we had made a wrong decision right from the begining. to admit that we arent suitable in the jc curriculum at all. and putting it plainly, to admit that it is really time to get ourselves out of the jc system.

giving up doesnt mean you are weak. sometimes it means that you're strong enough to let go.

sokeng, know you wouldn't get to see this post ever. but still, sincerely wish you all the best for your future. follow your dreams and your heart. i know it will bring you to where you really want to be. goodbye & goodluck. takecare, my fren! :) till we meet again.

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Saturday, August 2, 2008/4:24 PM

你曾经以为会是一辈子的朋友
却恍然大悟他/她注定只能是你生命里的一个过客

才明白在这世上，没有谁能够永远陪谁
也许只有回忆，才可以是一辈子的
change is the only constant

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Friday, August 1, 2008/5:37 PM

random fact #1: finally watched my 溏心风暴's last episode. glad that it has quite a good ending. =DDDDDD

racial harmony celebration on wednesday. rather late i know but that's a decision by the college. what to do? anyway, all the girls in our class managed to wear traditional costumes. and of course, we are the most enthu bunch of people ever, i guess.
just realised, in jc, there isnt a tradition for the graduating classes to all wear traditional costumes. strange indeed.

anyway, took some photo as usual(thats what the girls like to do, i realise)
shall put up only few. cos too many photos to upload.
here it goes:

a few of the class with our gp tutor. we loved him! <3

our clique: jingling, huiteng, sinting, jingjie, alicia, alicia.
overall i thought it was fun. but of course i still prefered the swiss's version of racial harmony day. hehe. =D

went for the SINGAPORE GARDEN FESTIVAL at suntec city today. oh my. i really really really adore the place. seriously. it's really fantastic!

Go Go Go!

the ticket.

looks like a white wedding, doesnt it?

different breeds of orchids.

different flowers.

look carefully! he is mao ze dong!

and 玛丽 lian meng lu. (i don't know which chinese character!)

the structure with its designer posing for a photo.

this is the best design. not from me but from all the judges.
look carefull. it depicts a land drowned under the water- the effect of global warming and the melting of the ice berg above.

i swear it is really really really gorgeous.

group photo.

it would be a totally different experience if you were at the place itself looking at the designs.
anyway, all thanks to jk for the great photos taken.
and it took me ages to upload these photos. so enjoy! =D
its seriously a wonderful experience. am so happy!

anyway, after the thing went for dinner with the rest. as usual, baba pangseh me again. so i gotta stick to jk n joseph. but dined at mac with wenxian n gang. afterwhich we went off on separate ways. crapped like shit with josh n jk on the way back home.

holy shit. it's 2.30am already and im still not asleep. tmr gsc workshop at 8am! and m having a very very bad sore throat now.

sick.

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