ever since i started to teach. i really looked forward to weekends. these are like the only time i have for myself. for me to do the whatever things i like. that i feel so relaxed and carefree.working=tired.i realised. but im still glad im no longer an A level student.cos i couldn't imagine going through JC another 2 years once again.days spent in swiss are making me so nostalgic.every little thing reminds me of something a few years back. could be the same thing we did as a student.could be just a trigger of memory. every little thing.i know this is really an awesome job.pay aside,the experience that i get aren't what everyone else can get.the familiar environment im in aren't what everyone else could imagine.the love,care and concern showered on me aren't what everyone else can experience. 但为什么还是不开心？真得很不开心。我不想再逞强了。是。不开心是因为他。真的是因为他。可能还有别的，但他绝对是a major contibuting factor.烦。真得很烦很烦。要每天这样到什么时候？我有我的人生要过的。我真的有。可不可以放过我？真得很痛。很痛心，很痛苦。我真得很想很想放下这个人。忘记这个人。好好过我的人生。好好过我的每一天。可是我到底该怎么做。怎么做才可以放下这一切的一切。从来没有那么想放下过，从来没有。可是现在，这一秒，这一刻的我，真的想放开。踏踏实实的move on from here.i can't bear with it anymore.i can't stand any longer.i realised i need to move on. i really have to.