and so. a level's results are out. its scary how our future is actually decided over this piece of shit. literally a piece of crappy shit for many of the people out there, who felt that they have actually flunged their a levels. my results weren't that all fantastic either. but i guessed im fine and happy with it. easy for me to say that, i know. since i got AAC/B. good enough for alot of courses, probably. there are frens around me who really did so badly that they can't stop crying and everything else. and i realise there's nothing i could do or say to ease their pain or at least make them feel better.maybe im not an appropriate figure either. guess it's really hard to accept the fact that after two bloody years of hardwork, what turns out is a piece of crappy result that is making the road ahead so tough and daunting; and making one feel so desperate and helpless. im not sure what each and everyone is feeling when they are crying over their results. are they regretting not putting in enough effort for the past two years? or are they feeling so dissapointed cos they didn't get what they want?or is it because they felt that they have let down the people around them? i don't know. cos i didn't cry. i didn't drop a single tear when i got my result slip.that was the promise i made to myself last year, after sitting for my last paper. cos i know i have already slogged my guts out for the last two years in jc and i have already done my best. i realised im not answerable to anyone for my grades cos i don't owe anyone an explanation. the grades are mine and no matter how good/bad they are, they only affect me. so yes, i didn't drop a single tear. though my chemistry tutor was really sad for me for my chem grade(i got a C), i regretted nothing. and now. no matter what, whatever the case, things are fixed. no more turning back, no more backing out. the only thing we can do is to move on from here. i came to a conclusion with a friend that there's always a road for all of us to take from here; just a matter of it being a easier road with fragrance of flowers and lovely chirpings of birds, or a more difficult road with pits and holes,dog shits and bird droppings. but at the end of the day, we will reach the same ending. those on the easier path will have an easier time; but those on the tougher road will be able to rough it out, and emerge as a stronger, more resilient individual. once again, congrats to those who did well. and for those who didn't, remember: 'that success doesn't make you and failure doesn't break you'. jia yous, my fren. and good luck for ur applications. hopefully all of you will get into the course you want and we will all move on from here.