that was the day. when ah gong left us for for the second year.it's strange how human likes to evade. or was it just me? how do we actually gauge whether we have really let something go? the fact that when we think of that something or someone, we no longer cry? i don't know. i always though i have let go of ah gong. until yesterday came and, i read jiaxian's entry dedicated to ah gong, that i realise i still have to cry so hard at that point of time. sometimes i think to myself, maybe we can't possibly forget everything. we can't forget this incident/this person completely even though it/he/she has left our lives. there must be times when we bring them up, and reminisce it, and then cry over it, and then we move on. guess anniversaries serves this purpose;a time for us to cry over it and then get stronger every other time. you know, i need to cry hard. cry really hard for this year's anniversary for only with that, i feel that i have genuinely went through this day.