Wednesday, May 5, 2010/2:51 PM
1)jiji gathering. as usual, very enjoyable! though dining at Astons@Cathay sort of spoil it for us cos of the lousy service from the manager, we had our own share of fun, crapping and laughing at stupid things. after that, we went to Ah Chew's for dessert. and then finally getting some place to sit at Iluma. couldn't remember the details of the meeting but i know, for every jiji meeting, there's only laughter;nothing else but laughter.











2)jiji kumaleh jkj gathering for farewell of yb n ah chua. singed at 10dollar ktv club at chinatown, afterwhich dined at chinatown and then chilled at clarke quay. everything well within my plannings. and that was my first time drinking at clarke quay. quite cool huh.I mean I'm not a party animal and so find it quite interesting to be going such places(and with baba,plus she got a drink too! and she shared with dear pong pong!how awesome!) anw, how time flies eh? Yb ky they all are entering army! Wo men dou zhang da le! So yes,thing changes,people changes over time.even the things we do changes over the years. Jiang zhen de, Really liked yongbin as a fren.I mean though we weren't that all close but still, he is an awesome fren that leaves fond memories in my heart and will always make me feel good even just by thinking of him.guess he went thru alot throughout the years and hence the changes in him-good and bad indeed. But still,he will always be my fren,no matter how much he has to change.he will still be the lovely xiao bin bin that I know,who never fails to bring laughter to the people ard him! have fun in army!

















3)Sometimes I wonder.how much must it take before one could really treasure what one have in life.how much more can one lose?how awful to regret in life,literally.

4)been reading my old posts these days and frankly speaking,I liked that.I mean some posts were so well written that I could still feel that sense of anguish there and then. Cool huh. Never thought my language were that powerful.or was that incident particularly memorable/unforgettable? It's been so long.I thought I would have long forgotten that. But I guess blogs do serve their purpose.and that I'm really glad I blogged, for quite a while.they are a way of preserving memories! No matter good or bad, they are worth preserving; I guess.

5)can't help it but i need to think of him yet again, in so many instances. Sigh. Are all these stopping?it feels so awful to be reminded of our happy days tgt cos we don't have them now. It feels so awful to recognize the fact that we are actually separate identity now cos we are nothing more than just friends.it feels so awful to be thinking that he still likes me cos in actual fact, he no longer does and that he had already moved on from the relationship.it feels so awful to know that i have landed myself in such a situation cos I have no one else to blame but myself.

6) and yes, i got myself a big cry. a day after ah gong's anniversary. i guess it helped, literally. though it was painful. so painful, indeed. but humans are humans. they need to let it out, or maybe i need to let it out. every time this year. i need to. so that i know i have not forgotten him. have not forgotten how much i wished for his presence. have not forgotten how much he has accompanied me through the years, even though he wasn't around physically.

7) teaching's ending soon. end of may. can't wait? perhaps. i know. i understand how this experience in swiss had been so amazing; so wonderful, to have those teachers as colleagues, to have those juniors as students. and every other thing that gives me a chance to reminisce those awesome times spent in swiss. but i guess teaching's really not for me. too stressful. too much responsibility on my back. i don't know. maybe it's just me. literally, every place, every part of swiss brings back fond memories. maybe because i wanted to go back to the past so much, that's why that nostalgia. swiss, where i met my best friends, my best teachers, my best CCA, gotten my best results, my best achievements, and of course, the place filled with memories of him. guess it takes us all to lose that something or someone before one can understand what kind of position that something or someone is in your heart and how much it/they really meant to you.

8)okay. with teaching ending, what's up next? guess im not getting a rest or what you call it 2 months of nua-ing at home. i think i needa get a job. so that im still earning money. so that im keeping myself occupied. so that im fully utilizing my holiday, doing different things, meeting different people. most importanly i guess is still earning money. sigh. quite hard up with cash nowadays. not me. but the family on the whole. so been trying to save up by staying at home, spending less on luxury items. and i need to take up more tuition, i guess!

9) gathering with 08s14! initially i thought there will be more people. but yeah. just the 8 of us. anw, we went to seoul garden and had our lunch+dinner. had an enjoyable session catching up with philip and yang fan, and we were really quite glad that they actually turned up! and for the rest of us, we had such a heavy meal that we almost died in seoul garden, literally. it was such a heavy meal! and of course, we had lots of laughter talking about the past days. how pranesh farted during pe lessons, how asha fell down on the track the only time she wanted to try jogging, how izni invented a dance routine during phy tutorial, how izni's hp rang in the lecture hall, how i admired mr tan, how scandalous cia was with yangfan, how ainah and bolin and fairul had an "affair", how sarcastic philip were to the class and of course, to yangfan, how farhana had absent herself for so long that we almost forgot this classmate of us, how she was always late for school,how ms liew just couldn't get some of our names right.... there were just too much laughter. and then we went over to esplanade for some pictures, then we walked over to The Helix; a new bridge around the marina area. hah. nothing special, i will say, just a bridge with nice view. it was quite crowded, consider the fact that it just had its grand opening, and it is a saturday night. and we met thomas and family there too. it was an awesome night spent with those people, and im glad i decided to join them afterall. it's been so long since i got myself to town...















11)okay.just someoverdued photos.

visiting yuping at toa payoh!




our happy times in staffroom!












swiss co concert 2010!







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