Suppose to sit down n blog abt baba's n ying's birthday party, the meet up with him, trip back to muar to visit cousin's newborn baby,gathering with o8s14 people,work,relationship w family so far,etc etc etc.haha.but jus can't seem to concentrate on that. And yeah,I think I need to finish up on the trip on Taiwan last December too! Lol.

I'm having this terrible headache now and I am thinking that there might be a brain tumor in my head! Haha. Seriously damn bad you know!

Been trying my best to bring him out of my life and I think I'm doing fine so far. Yes! Finally taking on my first step. It aren't easy cos whatever things I do,whoever I am with,I can link to him. Super siao n crazy! But I guess I have that ability... Did I mention that I finally met up with him after so long? Yeah,was his birthday treat that was supposed to take place so long ago. Not my fault seriously but it's due to his busy army life. Oh well,I was surprisingly calm that day before meeting him. I didn't know or really cared what actually am I feeling or thinking at that moment. And I guess I'm a really fantastic actress. Could act like nothing happened between us and we were just friends for as long as I know. So we had lunch at Swenson's and then went on to catch Toy Story. That was like the bloody first time we caught a movie tgt after we went on our separate ways! It was awful, literally. But I gotta sit through it an act like nothing was wrong. Frankly speaking, there were a couple of time when I really have the urge to lean over to him like what I used to do in the past. But apparently, I didn't have the courage to. If I have had, I wouldn't have had been in this mess for 2 years. Yeah. By the end of July, it would have been exactly two years since we broke up... Anw, so it was quite an awful experience to be with him in the cinema, though there were really times when I secretly looked at him from my place and reminisced those sweet times we had.. It was a strange experience,really. And in the end, I came to this conclusion that we aren't really loving each other that much, Do we? Cos if we were, we wouldn't have had allowed all these to happen and we wouldn't have missed/gone by each other again and again. If I had loved him that much, I would have had the courage to go back to him. It was an awful realization, but regrettably made sense. Anw, it's over. Everything's over I guess. I need to let it go and move on from here. Gotta tell myself that I deserve someone else that would treasure me more, someone else that I could have all the courage in the world to say I wanna be with him... If we are meant to be,we will get back tgt after all the roundabouts. If we aren't,there's nothing I could do to change anything.

Baba's n ying's birthday party! Oh well, it was really a great great party we had ever! It all started with baba,wanting a surprise as her birthday gift. So me,yz,turbo thought of having a party for them since we hadn't had one before! So we were planning of going over to ying's house earlier that day to decorate the karaoke room that we will be sleeping in and getting help from some of ying's friend whom we know to get her out for shopping. But! All our efforts almost went down the drain when ying's dad don't allow us to stayover cos he wants ying's bro to prepare for the N levels... We sincerely thought the idea had gone bust and we were so disappointed! Luckily smart Alec yz remembered that ying still has a condo somewhere that's vacant! So we check with ying and oh yeah! We could stayover there! Then all the planning starts going into action. I called up ying's mum to tell her about out plans and everything, and that we need the keys to the house a day before we staysover to decorate it. So we got it and as really smart people,we managed to discuss all the pack list and buy list without the knowledge of baba n ying at cheryl's birthday party. So on that day itself, me yz yp n turbo met up at jurong point n got all the necessary stuffs n we headed down to her condo to decorate it. We done up the place so nicely until we were super touched ourselves! We got alot of 博名演出 just to set up our 七彩霓虹灯~ n put up the names, crepe papers and everything! Haha. Everything was well within our control,I have to say and we ended off at around 10pm. So we headed home and all were excited for the day to come! The next day, we met at cityhall to have dinner tgt and headed off to the rooftop garden at the esplanade, then to the helix. We kept everything short so that we can go back to the condo soon for our surprise party. Can only say we acted so well on not knowing how to go to her condo and etc etc. Anw, on our way back, we started to use some Thai language to communicate.it was really random but these 6 syllabus alone caused bloody lots of laughter on the bus! We were like laughing non stop while using "park tong chye" and "chit pong phye" as adjectives,nouns or punctuation. Insider joke seriously. But one guy standing beside us was like um Chio-ing and it made us laugh out loud even more! All in all,it was a crazy laughing session on our way back! As we were nearer to her condo, the four of us started to get edgy. Cos we were really excited! But still, as very professional actress, we acted like normal! Until when we realise that ying got off at the wrong busstop,(anw,did I mention that she doesn't know how to go to her house!O.o) we started to hint her like "eh u sure is this one ma. I think I come before for my junior's party.." , "ehh I think u call ur dad to ask la. Don't make us walk like siao leh"... We sort of guided her to the correct path and tada! We reached! Then with everything within our plans, we kicked off the party! Apparently they were shocked by the decos and everything! And thanks uncle auntie for acting along too! Hahaha. So we took many pictures and passed them their present, took out the cake and choya, turned on the music and let the party begin! We were not allowed to sleep though some of us still have activities the next day. So we were thinking of ways to keep ourselves awake,playing cards,looking at music videos etc. And in the end,we decided to go out for a walk! Holy mama. Walk at 2am in the night! And so we walked n walked,finally made our way to the Mac at bukit batok to catch the world cup. By the time we sat down to watch, we were already dog tired.. Luckily they scored a goal and we decided to make our way back to condo to have an hour of sleep before we head down to the condo's pool... Oh well, by then I was already too tired to have my brain functioning properly. But still, we were still so amused by those Thai language that we have been using got the whole night! Totally can't stand it man. Anw, so we finally got back and started to prepare ourselves for an hour of sleep but apparently, we can't stop laughing at our Thai language! So it took us quite some time to really settle down and before we know it,it was time to head to the pools. We were very reluctant to but still,we went down at ard 6am in the morning... The moment we got into the pools, we were stopped by the security guard. So we were forced to get up and then we secretly go into the baby pool to dip in the water. After some time, we reckon that we need to go up cos yp gotta go.... So the whole party ended off... I can only say it was really a great one organized by us. Had hell lots of fun and laughter! Everything was so well planned and within control. Heh. And yes, no one can be sweeter than jiji!

went back muar to visit cousin's newborn! oh yeah. she's so cute!guess it always feels good to see newborns? someone so pure, so innocent brought into this world. can't help but feel happy for ah yin! got married to someone whom dotes on her so much, and then gave birth to a cute little baby girl to complete the family. oh well, im an aunt now. haha! time really do flies. feels like it was just yesterday that all of us cousins, hanging around tgt during cny, still playing poker, eating goodies, playing catching... okay. too exaggertaing to be just yesterday, but really, can't imagine things changing so fast, so rapidly over the many many years as we grow... anyway, sincerely hope for the best for yin's sweety pie! both mother and daughter to be well and good for the many good years to come.

gathering with 08s14 peeps again! okay. still the few same old faces whom turned up, but it's perfectly fine with me! cos we enjoyed this company very much. and so, met up with cia earlier to do some shopping, and yeah. this lucky fella is back from her month-long trip in london!totally envied her to the max! cos she went to rome in italy! oh well, so she updated me about her trip over there and got me some souvenirs. really sweet of her cos i didn't even get something for her during my macau trip. okay, that's besides the point cos our relationship is not measured by all these gifts. haha. anw, guess that she enjoyed herself very very much over there, so much so that she didn't wanna come back. typical of travellers lah. frankly speaking, she's a really special friend to me. i mean we weren't getting along real well during our jc days. it was only towards the end onwards, we get all closed up. maybe because we spent alot of time studying in school together till late night, and that was how we built our bonds. she was a friend whom i genuinely thinks should do very well for her A's cos she worked bloody hard. but in the end, she didn't. was very sad for her. and of course, she was very upset and disappointed too. but in the end, she manage to pick herself up and move on from there. okay. abit off tangent! back to the topic. yah. so we had dinner after that with the rest of the people at Manhattan Fish Market at Marina Sq. it was quite good, i should say. and of course, made better with this company! we can laugh like mad again and again over old jokes and old incidences brought up before during the last meet up. and yes, we literally can't stop laughing! so after the dinner, we went outside to wait for the fireworks performance from the ndp rehearsal. it wasn't part of the plan but a pleasant surprise! so while waiting, we played some card games and once again, had a whole lot of uncontrollable laughter. then the fireworks came and we went on to cheer and yell. it was beautiful. really. what a splendid display of fireworks! so after that, we headed for a game of pool. okay, i didnt like playing(and i dunno how to) so i sat at the side with izni. had an enjoyable htht session with her. she updated me abt her and her bf- what a jerk! shall not spell out the details but actually am really glad that she left him for good. and then we started to ask how come we just don't get to come across someone good. hahaha! it was funny how we talked through those relationship stuffs and yeah, we sounded super desperate. haha. but deep in our hearts, i know, we are all genuinely looking forward to someone really good and sweet to enter our lives. anw, it was a great gathering with these people! thanks for all the laughter, friends!

okay. i guess that's all for now. too lazy to continue typing. will continue soon! haha. till then!