Read those past entries again. Yes, again. Not the first time I did that. Realized there are just so much entries talking about him. About how much I missed him. About our times together. About how much I've tried to let go of him time and again. And how I failed terribly each time I tried to do so. It's the 21st day of the month. A day that once belonged to us. A day that depicted the start of everything about us that I couldn't let go of. If we hadn't went our separate ways, we would have had been together for 2 years and 10 months. But we did, and it had been 2 years and 3 months since we broke up. Amazed by how much time had passed. Why is it so hard. Why is it just so hard. 为什么就是办不到. 为什么他要让我那么难过. Why. I just can't stop questioning. I tried to bury everything. I tried to stop thinking about this person ever again. Everything about us. But it still ended in tears. And the cycle repeats itself? Yes, I think so.