I can never forgive myself if anything was to happen to wai gong. I can never. Who am I to judge mummy. To think that she asked for an early departure tomorrow for her selfish reasons. How can I ever understand the position she is in. Her feelings as a daughter. You know how sad I were just now? You know how regret I felt? You know how I scared I felt? I was so scared. So scared that wai gong wouldn't make it through. and I can never ever forgive myself. And once again, I will have to live through this regret for the rest of my life. Ever since gong gong passed away, I constantly remind myself to be filial to my parents and grandparents. To treat them well, to accompany them as much as possible. The last thing I wanted is to regret not being filial to them. I don't want to go through the same heartbreak that i went through after the demise of gong gong. That I blamed myself for taking him for granted. And for not showing my filial piety before it is too late. It's always such regrets that breaks the heart. To have not done something, and regretted that you hadnt. Please let wai gong go through this ordeal with as little pain as possible. And he can be back to the healthy him soon. He shouldn't be suffering anymore. Wai gong, get well soon.