you know. maybe we're meant to be friends. meant to be just friends. im talking about that new him. actually we known each other for very long. but there hadnt been spark. any spark or sorts throughout those years we had known each other. it had been pure friendship. just pure friendship between a man and a woman. friends who talk about anything and everything. about studies, about life, about love, about romance. everything! we still do this now. talking about anything and being really comfortable with each other's accompany.

he once told me this:
True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable.

i agree. very much agree. if you dont know each other well enough, you both feel uncomfortable to be quiet because there's this "awkward silence" thing and there's really no common topic to talk about. if you two liked each other(i.e. mutual attraction) but not yet a couple, you both feel uneasy to be quiet because there's "adrenaline pumping" and you need some noise to cover up that feverish thumping of your heart.

but when im with him, im neither. im comfortable. im comfortable not talking with him or vice versa. comfortable just being silent. i dont know what position does that leaves the 2 of us in then. maybe all along, i have thought too much, put too much attention into it, and tried too hard to find explanations or reasons for everything.

im cool to be in this stage now. a pretty single woman.
go out on dates. go all out. you're not bounded by any commitments and you don't need to account to anyone. open up your choices and just follow your heart. whatever comes, comes. whatever's meant to be, will be.

when someone treats you well, lets not ask why.
lets just accept it and to our very best, reciprocate.
perhaps life's simpler and happier that way.