sometimes. i still think of the ex. even though i am pretty sure i have gotten over him right now, at this point of my life. but i still think about it. think about those what ifs. much so after i have already decided to move on. think of how it would have been if we hadnt gone our separate ways then. if i had been much much braver and stronger then. will we still be together now? will we still be the love of each other's life? or would we have broken up because our character don't match. or maybe we dont love each other anymore. or there's a 3rd party that has invaded into our relationship? or maybe what if i hadnt got over him now. will i be still waiting for him to come back to me? will i be still waiting to be his girl again? will i pluck up enough courage to tell him that i still missed/loved him?
so many things could have happened, right?but yet. none of them happened.

none of them. im not feeling bitter all over again. im not. im just reminded. about my past with him. and feel amazed. by how much one's heart is so susceptible to changes. and how much time makes a difference. and how much growing up makes a difference to everything.

"Perhaps the truth of the matter is, some people just aren’t meant to be in our lives forever. Maybe they are just passing through. It’s like how there are those who come through our lives to bring us something: a gift, a blessing, or a lesson we need to learn. That’s why they’re here, and you’ll have that gift with you forever. But for those who have stayed and remained true, distance could never keep them apart, even in heart, and they will find one way or another to make it till the very end.

It’s been two months since I came to terms with the break up. Watching Eddie walk out of my life six months ago no longer makes me cynically bitter about love. Instead, it has allowed me to realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, then imagine how beautiful and magical it will be when the right one eventually comes along. And this time, I promise to be patient. :)

Some people come into your lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same."

i really loved the way that she had phrased it. the stranger whom i had been following. it just happens. maybe, that we share similar experiences. so i resonate. you know. i loved her entries so much that i can read through the same entries again and again. and, i loved this stranger so much, that i really wish she will meet someone good soon. cos she deserves it. more than anyone else, she deserved a good relationship.


i've learnt that, everyone has a past. he(the new him), once had, so do I. so maybe we could just let them remain in the past. no matter if it had been good or bad. if it's over, let it be. and we'll be fair. to not demand each other to erase those past away. for no matter whether it had been sweet or bitter to us, they are for us to keep. those memories are for us to keep close to the heart. cos they will always be a part of us.