Why. Why am I scared that he happened to discover my blog somehow. And he read it. And thus he changed his attitude towards me.

Why. Why do I have this urge to post something up on my blog. To explain. To say that I really do liked him and maybe we do have a chance to get together afterall.

While I say that whether we get together or not doesn't matter, cos either way has it's pros and cons, why do my heart still feel the longing to be his. Still feel this disappointment that I'm feeling right now?

On a side note, I haven been feeling genuinely comfortable blogging here ever since I was exposed by so many people. Though I try to not think about them and all those, I think I'm still afraid. More so now with the addition of this new him in my life, I'm afraid of being judged. Being judged by other people.
Like the previous post. I typed it out for quite sometime. But I don't know why I didn't had the courage to post it. I couldn't give myself a good reason seriously.
Until today, now. When I think that's enough. That's really enough and I want to and I really need to just post whatever I WANT on MY blog.

To you, you and you. I'm freakin not gonna be bothered by how you're going to judge me, alright?