from me, to him:
Hey! okay, just wanna say, i really had a great night today. not to mention the great deal of laughter and catchups with the rest, but also i managed to see you, and face you after so long. frankly speaking, i was a little edgy before meeting you again tonight. i thought i wouldn't be able to face you still. i thought i would feel so awkward. i thought i would feel so sad all over again. but well, i was glad. glad that we could once again talk like how we used to be. i swear i heaved so much sighs of relieve today, feeling good and happy to be facing you again, and not feeling sore and hurt. i don't know how to express or describe this feeling but i think it's just plain magical. i admit it took me quite a long time to get over and sometimes i still doubt if i ever even gotten over at all. but after tonight, i think im ready to face you again. to embrace you as a friend once again, and letting the hatred, the disappointment, the hurt and whatever ill feelings to pass. thank you! i didnt had the chance to say thanks to all the happy memories you have left me with. hope it didn't come too late. and yes, promise we will still be real good friends like how we used to be? heehee. feel free to drop me a sms anytime when you feel like it to catch up and if you face any unhappiness ever again. cliche and cheesy it may sound, but im always around to lend a listening ear. take care, my dear friend! and good night! :)what a night. what a night, seriously.
you know people always think they should totally stop seeing that person whom they thought they couldnt get over. but after that night, i was reminded how silly that idea might have been. it was when i see him again, i realised i was okay. i realised it wasn't that overwhelming afterall.
of course, there's no way at all for us to turn back time. no way for me to feel nothing for him. no way for me to not grasp a breathe whenever his name appears infront of me. no way for me to not feel any palpitations when im at places we once were at, doing things we once did together. there's essentially no way for me to erase everything and anything about him.
it was almost impossible to imagine, imagine seeing him again. getting back in touch with him again.
i admit. there were still instances when i felt that overwhelming wistfulness, that i really thought, it's a pity. it's such a pity that we weren't able to walk till the end. that we weren't meant to walk that far together. cos he's still such a good man. of course, i quite hate to admit this but well, after going through so much of those heartbreaks and tears, i still, as a matter of fact, see him as a good man.
for the hell of it all, he is a good man.
damn.but still, i can proudly say, i was set free. freed by him, and freed by myself.
就好好祝福他吧。这样好的一个他，会找到最适合他的另一半
而我，也会等到真正属于我的幸福，真正懂得珍惜我的那个他。
Sunday, December 11, 2011/5:16 PM
Met up a goodfren for dinner recently. It was like usual, good, with catchups on life. But this time round, I feel an additional tinge of joy; and in hope of something nice happening soon.
I have been consistently giving him tips from behind on how he could approach a lady he liked for quite some time. Maybe not tips. Just my thoughts, feelings, two cents worth, perhaps.
For once, I secretly thought that the girl was so fortunate. Damn. Like oh well, lucky for her! To have someone standing behind her back like him. Of course, I bear no special feelings for this fren of mine. Not at all. But still, having to hear how he had liked her from afar, brightens up my otherwise depressing year end.
I don't know why but I have this strong feeling that he's gonna succeed soon. He gonna win her heart over soon. Ahh. What a great and beautiful feeling that had been!
It would have been magical; to be able to see him and her blossom into a beautiful relationship.
Probably deep down I feel that he deserves her after this long. He is worthy of her for the time and effort he has put into the relationship.
And not to mention, that hardwork are suppose to pay off. While true love deserves to be reciprocated too. The right time is here, that's what I feel. So I genuinely hope he will make it.
Love is on the way? I hope so. All the way, my fren!
Saturday, December 10, 2011/11:29 PM
Get in love,
Not because you're lonely
but because you're ready.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011/1:45 PM
一场失败的爱情像个笑话热得时候心乱如麻冷了以后看见自己够傻人怎么会如此容易无法自拔一场无味的爱情像个谎话甜的时候只相信它苦了以后每一句都可怕人怎么会如此难以了无牵挂
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